Ground Crumbling

They are putting my kids in foster care tomorrow and they had the nerve to call me today wanting me to meet them at the hospital with my son for a crisis screening. He has said he will kill himself if he’s put in foster care but he told them he didn’t want to come back with me. See what happens when you play games little boy? Pulling the suicide card is the same as crying wolf and you got exactly what you  wanted. He is crying out for attention, isn’t there one man on this entire earth that can give my son what he so desperately needs?

I would gladly give up any opportunity for my own happiness if only I could give my child what he is crying out for but I cannot. My husband was so caught up in his own pain that he couldn’t give the kids or I what we needed. I wish my husband were here so I could slap the shit out of him but he is not so I slap myself instead. The ground is crumbling under my feet and I do not know how much longer I can survive without love in my life.

I go to bed every night crying and wake up with salt stained cheeks, I am strong but I have finally reached the point that I no longer can keep my shoulders up. The house is a disaster and I’m trying to get rid of crap and sell everything. I have to get out of here or I will literally die   

We Gotta Get Out Of This Place Lyrics Midnight finds me crying’ Day time finds me cryin’ too I’ve got to get out of town This whole city just brings me down, yeah Gotta get away Gotta get away Gotta get away I made a promise to you such a long time ago Now baby, now baby, now baby, now baby It’s time to make it come true yeah, come through yeah Come true yeah, come through yeah, come true yeah In this dirty old part of the city Where the sun refuse to shine People tell me there ain’t no use in me trying, no Little girl you’re so young and you’re so pretty And one thing I know is true Your going to be dead before your time is due See my daddy in bed dying Watched his hair been turning gray I know he’s been working and slaving Working and slaving, slaving and working Working, yeah Work, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah We gotta get out of this place If it’s the last thing we ever do We gotta get out of this place, there’s a better life Don’t you know, don’t you know Man, don’t you know, don’t you know, don’t you know http://www.6lyrics.com/we_gotta_get_out_of_this_place2-lyrics-the_animals.aspx Well, well, well Time brings about a change Time on the clock, on the wall Brings about a change, yeah All of his life he’s been slaving All of the life he’s been working For what? For what? For what? For what? Give it up, give it up Give it up, give it up, yeah See my daddy in bed dying Watched his hair been turning gray I know he’s been working and slaving And slaving and working, and working and slaving Working, yeah Work, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah We gotta get out of this place If it’s the last thing we ever do We gotta get out of this place There’s a better life Don’t you know, don’t you know, don’t you know Take me, take me, take me We gotta get out of this place If it’s the last thing we ever do We just gotta get out of this place There’s a better life, there’s a better world There’s a better way Don’t you know, don’t you know, don’t you know We gotta get out of this place If it’s the last thing we ever do We gotta get out of this place There’s a better world Don’t you know, don’t you know, don’t you know I want to get you out of this place Out of this place Out of this place Yeah, yeah, yeah

 Lord give me the strength to open my eyes in the morning because I do not have the strength any longer to move a muscle. I am so very tired, working my fingers to the bone trying to save my kids, get the house ready to sell, getting medallion stamps, signatures, can’t keep food down. I am exhausted and I need someone to hold me, just for a few seconds, Lord please I beg you, please.