It’s time for this ole girl to take a vacation as I have worked so damn hard for so long that I need a breather, a rest of the mind and body. I will find out next week if the funds will be available and as soon as they are I am planning a trip to Turks and I am going to sleep, walk on the beach, rest, rest, rest and make love to the man who I love, that son of a bitch. One minute he is black then the next white, one minute I am the fish, the next he wants me as his wife.
He is either unsure of what he wants or he is a very confused person and I have no clue which it is but I do not that he is not happy, not really happy inside. He hides his pain from everybody and talks to no one of his hidden feelings, he is mouthy at times and needs to watch what he says especially with Mercury going retrograde as communication is misunderstood and people get angry and upset when you do not need them to. He is moving on up but not fast enough for himself as he does everything fast and he never slows down and he better before he kills himself.
We will see how serious he really is about me if he shows up at the Turks with his birth certificate but I seriously doubt he is that serious. We’ve talked for three years and I believe I know him well enough to have a committed relationship with him but can he say the same thing, I have no idea. I know one thing for sure is I am looking forward to going to sleep with him and waking up next to him, walking on the beach hand in hand and talking getting to know each other.
The chemistry is already there I do know that and I am so looking forward to having conversations with someone who is intelligent for a change. I get so damn tired of talking to people whohave nothing to really say and they bore me to no end. I am not some genius but I am intelligent enough to know more than one subject and it has been so damn boring for the last year and one half for me as I have had no one to talk to in person.
I need this vacation so damn bad I cannot wait for the day the plane leaves, damn I am so EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!