Hey Gabriel how’s it feel love to be single and foot loose and fancy free? So you’re in love with a lab assistant huh? Well, congratulations I’m happy for you as you have helped me get where I am in my life. You scammed me real good and have played me for three years, proud are you? Well, I have learned valuable lessons from you and I thank you because if you wouldn’t have scammed me I would still be ignorant.
I like the way you use Kaye to talk to me, lol why? I’m not sending you another dime sweetheart so what is it you want? My friendship? You want to marry me? Lol I do not think so and that is fine as I do not need to be married to be happy or to commit. You never committed to me and played me like the pro you are but the game is over love, yep it’s over. I will not go out looking for some guy to fill the void in my life to please you and make you feel less guilty.
Don’t feel guilty as it’s a wasted emotion, there is no benefit to but to make yourself feel like shit and I think you feel like that all on your own. Mental illness and physical illness is a bitch and life can really suck but if you surround yourself with people that really care about you and love you, well you can overcome anything. I don’t want anything from you not even the money you scammed as money doesn’t change my perspective on people or my life.
I’m happy, yes I am very happy just by myself, yep little ole’ me is happy and I have done it all by myself with the help of counseling and meds of course. You have been buying antidepressants online for years but you just can’t seem to find peace within yourself can you? Well, I have and it’s wonderful to feel so good about myself after so long of hating myself-you should try liking yourself sometime it’s amazing what it will do for your outlook.
I am not waiting for you to show up at my door or get on bended knee, no I am past that dream, like you said I’m a dreamer but what a dreamer I am, really. I do not want you to feel bad about the games you and “Frankie” have played with me, honestly I do not. I can not allow myself to feel anger towards you or any one as it isn’t good for me so I want you to know I forgave you long ago. Yes I forgave both of you and I have forgiven myself.
I do hope you and your girlfriend or fiance are very happy together and I do hope you can rebuild a family unit and have fun together, enjoy life and chase those rainbows because at the end of the rainbow is butterfly’s and butterfly’s are free as you should be. Free yourself from the chains that bind you and enjoy life love because we only go around once and you have lived such a full life but now it’s time to value the time that you have left.
Age changes us and age makes us look at problems and people differently and I do not see an evil man, no I see a very sweet man that is troubled and needs a whole lot of understanding and love. Your girlfriend hopefully can fulfill your needs because you are worth it babe you really are. I’m not blowing smoke up your ass I just want you to be happy and not so damn tormented all the time because I have been where you are and it’s not a happy place.
Good luck in your life and I will continue to pray for you, try meditation it will help with the pain, trust me it works. Do me a favor please stay of my computer as there is nothing there of interest for you ok? O and by the way, I know it’s you doing all the poking using different names, haven’t you realized that you just like everyone else has certain things that you do over and over? You give yourself away love and there’s no longer any challenge as you are so predictable now, trying doing something unpredictable for a change.