Have you ever felt guilty for doing something you shouldn’t have? Of course you have and you probably feel guilty right now as you read this knowing that I know you read what I write. You have an insatiable desire to know my every thought, especially when it comes to you.
You sit back and judge me and often wonder where I am coming from or what makes me tick or think the way I do , you can’t figure me out because you are not suppose to, you are only suppose to learn from me hopefully and maybe I have shed some light on the dark corners of your life.
I should just call you the “peregrine” as I feel like the rodent you hunt from the sky’s, you follow my every move and I do not know why but it isn’t doing you any good is it? You like reading about my new “interest”? Does it make you feel good to know that someone is interested in me?
I won’t be alone for along I guarantee you that so do not worry about me, please I will be fine. I will have my soul mate when the time is right and I will remember you fondly and pray that you one day become happy. I cannot change your actions or lack of I should say.
We both know if you wanted to be with me you would but you have no time for me in your life nor do you want that or it would happen. You will be gone again shortly for the season and your head is turned towards Brazil and there is no space there for me.
You don’t seem to want me to find happiness with anyone and you seem to like to see me sad and lonely and I have no idea why you would be that way. I want the best for you and always will and if you are involved I do hope you turn your head back to your relationship.
Do us both a favor and forget about me and my life and wish me luck in this life, pray for me that my soul mate comes to me soon because I am deeply lonely, yes I admit it I am very lonely and want to share my life with someone.