The Scattered Mind

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I feel like I have jumped off a huge cliff and hit bottom and bounced back up, that is what my life is right now with my son. He is giving me such a hard time about going to school, he pulled the migraine headache this morning and I couldn’t get him up. He stayed up to late of course and was too tired to goto school.

He wants me to let him do online schooling which is bull because he won’t do the work no matter what and I already know this. He is so damn manipulative people get sucked into his way of thinking and they go against what I say. Well guess the fuck what? I am his mother and he will do as I say.

He has my mind so damn scattered because we go round and round and nothing gets accomplished. He just has no desire to do anything and I am so sick of cleaning up after this kid I could scream. He makes me feel like I should just lie down and drift off into a permanent slumber.

I haven’t smoked a joint in a week but I sure need one now just to mellow me out so I don’t choke him to death. Don’t get me wrong, I love my son but two bipolar people in the same household isn’t easy to live with when one isn’t following the program.

He is so damn smart and creative I wish I knew what to do for him to make him happy but I am totally clueless as what to do. I cry over him so much, more out of frustration than anything else. If he had a girlfriend that would change his world but that won’t happen until next year I fear.

I am the faceless scream in the dark of night

That has no power over his plight

I try as I may

To make a happy day

But there is just no way

To reach him today
I know not what to do

For this child gives me no clue

I wish someone would say

I am here to help you today

He wants me to let him do online schooling which is bull because he won’t do the work no matter what and I already know this. He is so damn manipulative people get sucked into his way of thinking and they go against what I say. Well guess the fuck what? I am his mother and he will do as I say.

He has my mind so damn scattered because we go round and round and nothing gets accomplished. He just has no desire to do anything and I am so sick of cleaning up after this kid I could scream. He makes me feel like I should just lie down and drift off into a permanent slumber.

I haven’t smoked a joint in a week but I sure need one now just to mellow me out so I don’t choke him to death. Don’t get me wrong, I love my son but two bipolar people in the same household isn’t easy to live with when one isn’t following the program.

He is so damn smart and creative I wish I knew what to do for him to make him happy but I am totally clueless as what to do. I cry over him so much, more out of frustration than anything else. If he had a girlfriend that would change his world but that won’t happen until next year I fear.

I am the faceless scream in the dark of night

That has no power over his plight

I try as I may

To make a happy day

But there is just no way

To reach him this way

I know not what to do

For this child gives me no clue

I wish someone would come my way

And help us find a good day

 

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