Everyone needs others to help us learn and the toughest lessons are taught to us by others and those lessons serve us well in our lives. All of us have a hunger, a need inside of us that requires nurturing and love to grow and make us be the person we are meant to be. We have three phases in our lives and the first is being born and growing into our teens, adulthood where our second core values are developed and then we become part of the aged, teaching others from our experiences.
Most live normal lives and grow and learn as they should and then there are those of fame that miss out on these important lessons. They do not grow as they should because they are gifted and given everything they want without working for it the way average people do. They get lost in the world of money and fame and find their self-worth is tied to material possessions and they never have the opportunity to learn who they really are and they wear a mask that others see yet they cannot see the true self.
I like to see the real person, stripped down without the fame and money because the core person is the only person I find worth knowing. You can dress yourself up and look gorgeous but if you cannot stand in front of the world dressed down then you do not know what your real worth is. A person’s worth comes from the heart not the wallet and when you value yourself for yourself you become happy and you have to like yourself for yourself, not what is expected of you by the world.
I know someone or should I say I do not know this person as other’s know him, I know him for him and he has low self-esteem because he has found people like him for his fame and fortune and not the real person inside. He hides that part of himself for fear of rejection as if he weren’t good enough if he wasn’t famous, which is so wrong. He is a beautiful person inside, his heart is huge and he is a true humanitarian but he doesn’t see this in himself for the world has painted him to be someone else.
He can have his fame and fortune and let himself “breath” and enjoy his life as he should if only he would like himself for who he is. I find his fame and fortune to be daunting because that isn’t who he is and I do not think he even knows who he really is. I find fame and fortune to be gross because of the severe damage it has done to his self image and I do believe he has found much unhappiness tied to money and fame. He needs to go back home, his real home of childhood, walk the meadows and ride horses bareback again.
He needs to remember when life was simpler and joy came from riding the range with the wind of time blowing in his face and grab that once was child and embrace him. I would so love to go back to those days with him and show him who he is not what he has to offer. I would so love to remind him that he is priceless without money, he is beautiful without fame and he is worth loving for the man God made him inside. I want him to know what it’s like to be loved for himself and nothing more because this would show him he is pretty special just as he is when stripped of the glory.
I finally understand why he scammed me and it is because he has learned to live a very expensive lifestyle and he didn’t know who he was as a man, but a myth. I do believe he is finally seeing the world does possess people who like him as if he lived next door, yes he is pretty special without anything and I pray one day he loves himself for the wonderful person he really is and no fame and fortune do not hold a place. He has found in me someone who isn’t turned on by his wealth and he doesn’t know how to handle that.
The ladies he has spent his time with are seriously over the top maintenance bitches and he doesn’t know how to deal with a woman who has no desire to be parasitic on his wallet. He doesn’t understand how I can find no love in money because that is all he has known for most of his life and he finds me somewhat a puzzle when the fact is I am no puzzle but a real person. We become what is expected of us and we forget that, that person is not the person we really are and we lose ourselves.
If he would open up enough to let me in if only for a moment he would learn to love the person he is and he could be so successful in his life and success cannot be measured in dollars but must be measured from our own hearts. Look inside yourself my dear and see that you shine so brightly my foster grants cannot protect my eyes from the beauty within you. Throw your wallet into the weeds and show me something, show me something wonderful about yourself, show me you and let me show you happiness.
Please let me take YOU to dinner and let me take You out for a change because I would have it no other way, are you to proud? Do you find it shameful to let a woman be the “man” for the evening? Let me show you my world and you will find love, maybe not in me but within yourself which is more important. You are my friend and always will be and that means more to me than all the money in the world, just to see you smile because you finally see the world is a very happy place with you in it.
When you can muster up the security and want to let me be the “man” for an evening or even for lunch you know how to reach me and the offer is standing until you take me up on it, got that? You fuck lol