My attornye is contacting Doris’s attorney and she is going to have to give me my dad’s ashes, that’s if she hasn’t dumped them already. I really need to put my dad at rest so I can get closure. I am so glad he is finally doing something that will put my mind at ease and fuck Doris. I am starting to look forward to my trip and I really need it so badly and I hope Frankie doesn’t leave me in the dark and by myself but if he does I am sure I will find someone to occupy my time with, hell a white girl in Nigeria I should have a pretty good pick of bed fellows and I don’t mean fucking.
I just want to laugh and have a great time and I want to find that damn rooster that keeps crowing because that little fuck needs his neck rung and he needs to be on a dinner table. I still have a shitload of candy canes I didn’t send and some other gifts that I want to give To Chike and the guys and I hope they like them. I do hope to meet Emmanual, yes the REAL Emmanual and I have some things for him as well that I do think he will like. I look forward to my trip because I know I will learn so much, maybe good maybe bad but I will learn.
I have decided to finally go out with Danny, he is friends with my fb Ron I went to school with and he is also a Scorpio which is a dangerous combination-two Scorpios together sizzle and I mean sizzle. I went out with a Scorpio years before I was married and it was without a doubt the best damn sex I have ever had in my entire life. It was like having sex with myself because he was a great kisser and so attentive to my body, he was slow and methodical like I am and a seriously romantic guy, but he was married, o didn’t I tell you I have done some things I am not proud of?
I didn’t know he was married for the first six months and when I found out I was in to deep and couldn’t get myself out until I finally had had enough of being second best and all the lonely holidays. Danny is funny and makes me laugh as we chat on fb all the time and I have finally agreed to meet him next week. Mr. Hockey has finally gotten himself involved with one of his groupie whores and we are still friends but he likes being famous and on top of his game and he likes the ritzy life so I wished him well and maybe he has found the woman he really wants but I doubt it.
I must keep moving forward in my life and let someone love me and let them in as my counselor said so I am going to take the plunge again. I have had issues with “C” but that was to be expected and I don’t bother talking about it because he means absolutely nothing to me and I don’t think he ever did. I have to hold onto the thought that my life can change with every breathe that I take and things are turning around slowly but they are finally turning for me. I have to keep reminding myself that I am a beautiful person and not let anyone take that away from me but I hope I can actually believe it one day.