The world used to be easy, it used to be simple and people used to care about one another but that is no longer our world. We teach our children from birth that love is tied to possessions and love is getting everything you want and getting it now. Our youth are taught by the tv, video games, the neighbors and their friends and parents like the idea of having a family, but not being family. Family is discipline, love, honesty and teaching the hard lessons that we must learn to survive in this world.
Parents do not teach their children how to survive in this world, o no let’s just buy them something and that is the answer. Parents are to caught up in making money, driving the nice cars and living in the fancy homes. Parents compete with their neighbors, friends and family as if winning the race is about what they have and what they can buy. I was raised on a farm, and then my mother took us back and we lived in poverty for years, there were no gifts just because and there was no love, period.
Parents need to be role models of the highest level of consciousness and need to take the time to listen to their children, what children do not say is what we should really be listening for and most don’t want to be bothered by their children’s cries. I am smart enough to listen and I am also smart enough to know if I do not have the answers than I go to someone who does. The answers we seek are not always in books or through other people, sometimes those answers come from God or whatever higher power you believe in.
We want to save our children pain when the fact is we must let them to feel pain to prepare them for life. Life has become so difficult because we are used to getting everything we want or at least some people are living a life like that. It’s life’s challenges that strengthen us, it being real that makes us the happiest and being loved for ourselves is what we are demanding of each other. The person that says they love you and are always holding their hand out do not know what true love is and they shall never find it.
We stay in unfulfilling relationships because we are afraid to go it alone, well I have gone it alone for most of my life and I have learned that going it alone isn’t so bad after all. When you are comfortable being alone and you are happy with yourself when you least expect it real love will come to you. When we search for that elusive one we never find them and when we are walking along the path by ourself out of the blue comes that special person, that special one that turns your head and keeps it turned.
My head has been turned but never for long because there is always some form of manipulation or ownership going on, there’s always the shit I have that gets in the way or the person has everything they could ever want and they wanted to add me to their wardrobe collection. I am not one that you can own, control or change because I have one man in my life that has the power that no real man could ever have, yes I believe strongly in God and the power he has and I never forget that he doesn’t make mistakes, no he teaches us the lessons we need to learn.
I had the most bizarre dream last night and I have no idea what it is supposed to mean but it felt so damn real it was actually scary. I dreamed that I met a man who had it all but he acted like a regular person, he wasn’t a pompous ass and he was kind. He wanted to give me everything and he could but we were happy with just each other, we enjoyed the simple things in life and we had a great time with each other. He gave me gifts everyday, the gifts he gave was of himself, his love, his knowledge and silliness and we got along like a hand and glove.
It was love in its purest form and I felt such serenity in my slumber and I never wanted to wake up, but alas, I did but I woke to my boys licking my eyes and cheeks which made me smile so. It’s moments like these that I am so thankful that I am alive and I am who I am because I know the secret to true happiness, the simple life, honest love and pure devotion. I am getting closer to my vacation and I am feeling peace and joy everyday and it feels damn good to want for nothing and I am happy that way.