I am a genuine person, a good person with a big heart but in this world people do not respect that, they cannot see that there is no games, no lies and the truth is too much for them to handle. People want love but do not know how to love and if someone cares about them they take advantage or they try to control the person. People are so used of being used that when someone genuine does come along they can’t believe it and do not believe in the person.
People play games especially online and it isn’t right to play with people and their emotions. People no longer respect each other and you cannot trust anyone with your feelings as they will abuse them. It’s a shame that so many relationships are going up in smoke and you can tell how to people really feel about each other by the look on their face or the distance between them as they walk down the same street. You can really tell a lot about a woman when she walks several feet in front of her mate because she is silently saying “I do not want to be near you”.
The romance in life is gone and replaced for superficial sex and so many are looking for what they can get from another not what they can give someone else. That is my problem in reverse as I look for someone who I can give so much to from the heart as a friend and possibly a lover. It’s so easy to get laid these days as people think sex will get them a life long mate which isn’t true and people use each other and toss them aside without thinking twice. I have learned to guard myself and protect myself from the users of the world and I envy no one.
People that do not know me have no idea what a great friend I am and they do not know that what I give comes purely from the heart, no games, no lies just pure me. I care for someone very much and I worry about this person and he doesn’t know that I am really his friend that cares about him and want only the best for him. I do not want anything from him and I have accepted the fact we shall never meet and that’s ok because what I have given him I have no idea but obviously I have given him something.
It’s just a shame that we cannot be real friends with a real relationship and I can’t call him up and ask how he’s doing, I can’t laugh with him or share anything with him one on one. I do not believe he cares at all about me because if he did he wouldn’t pretend to care for me under assumed names and try to keep me from meeting anyone that could possibly care for me. I do not believe he wants anyone to care and love me and I do not understand why he would even care.