I have been so unhappy for so very long and I never really thought I would ever meet anyone anytime soon that would change that. Well, guess what? I was surprised by a very special guy that treats me so good I just do not know how to act. This man invited me to his home in California but that didn’t sit to well with me as it would have been the second time we have spent time together.
I thought to myself, wow if I don’t go he will blow me off but if I do go I will hard pressed to have sex with him and that isn’t something I was willing to do so early in the dating game. It’s not that I do not love sex, no I absolutely adore sex and pleasing a man sexually but there has got to be more for me. To many women are ready to jump in bed with a man as if that is all they have to offer and a woman who will fuck a guy anytime he wants, well she is after something that is a given.
I felt bad telling him I just couldn’t go with him at this time and I told him it would be great to spend time with him but it has to be close to home right now until things possibly solidify between us. I told him that I do not sleep around or with men that are sleeping with other women and he told me he wasn’t, do I believe him? I do not know it’s just to early to tell but I am not comfortable having sex with him.
He has offered to get a hotel room for the weekend and we can hang out which is exactly what I was hoping would happen because it shows me he wants to be with me for me not just sex. I’m so excited I could pee myself because nothing this great has happened to me like ever so yes I am looking forward to this weekend. We have talked about going to Ohio for dinner and to Canada to do dim sum and out to Ann Arbor for the street fair.
He obviously plans on keeping me busy and occupied and that is exactly what I want, good food, laughter, sillyness and enjoying each other in a natural setting without the pressures of having to pretend to be someone we aren’t, which would never happen with me anyway. I really like this guy so much and he is making me forget about someone else that has been on my mind for years.
If you want to forget somebody the easiest way is to meet someone who you really are attracted to and someone you want to spend time with. I will never forget the other guy but I will no longer focus on him and let him make me feel like shit about myself. This new man of mine is always complimenting and the compliments are genuine and from the heart and that is what makes my world go around.