To Experience

I find myself looking forward to new experiences on a daily basis but some of those experiences have taught me lessons that will stay with me throughout my life time. I have been dating a guy that is VERY well off financially and it has been fun but not as much fun as I thought it would be. I see this man treat people in a way that doesnt sit well with me because he has money doesn’t give him the right to look down on people.

When you treat people poorly then that says volumes about you as a person and he has made the mistake of making remarks regarding me being an industrial electrician. I wasn’t born with a golden spoon in my mouth or allowed the luxury of building a very successful business but I didn’t sit on my laurels and do nothing with my life. I could have done nothing but work at a restaurant as a waitress or become a barmaid and lived that way until Mr. Right came along.

Being an electrician takes more than brains and it isn’t a profession for the faint at heart, its a very dangerous profession especially in the industrial world because you are not limited to 120 volts, more like 4800 volts on a daily basis. When you laugh at me for my work then you are a fucking idiot. I didn’t have the money to go to college and went to a community college until I had to stop because of my  husband’s health.

I do not like anyone trying to buy me and yesterday I traveled to Houston with him and he gave me his credit card to go shopping, most women would have jumped on that but not me because when you take a man’s credit card you damn well better plan on giving him sex in return. I never take anything from anyone because I have learned it is always used against you or thrown in your face.

I did enjoy his company very much but then I began to see the real man and I didn’t like what I saw so I have no intentions of going out with him again, I do not care how much money he may have, what he can give me or buy me. I have met several men that were financially well off and I have found them all to have an ego problem and they like to throw around their weight.

So as quickly as it started it has ended but I’m ok with it because I like my own company and quite comfortable with being by myself. I’m just glad I didn’t fall into bed with him and still have my self worth intact. I guess it just wasn’t meant to be and I can still walk around with my head held high and know that I didn’t sell myself short to the highest bidder.

Splender In The Grass

What though the radiance
which was once so bright
Be now for ever taken from my sight,
Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendour in the grass,
of glory in the flower,
We will grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remains behind;
In the primal sympathy
Which having been must ever be;
In the soothing thoughts that spring
Out of human suffering;
In the faith that looks through death,
In years that bring the philosophic mind.

The above poem is about  a girl and what she was feeling about the boy that she wanted to marry but never could, it was in the movie of the same name and it so reminds me of two people who loved each other. It touched me so as the poem is so poignant to my  own life in so many ways.