I was sitting here after my evening walk and cooling off as the sweat dripped down my forehead and to my surprise I hear a knock at the door. I answered it and Franscico was at the door. I wasn’t expecting him as he had another business meeting to attend today after we had breakfast. He told me he had been giving serious thought to his future and he was thinking it was time for him to build a future.
I listened intently and assumed he was talking about another business venture so I half listened and continued to play a game on the computer. He got a bit pissed and asked me to please pay attention to him so I sat back on the couch and gave him my undivided attention. He told me he realized we had just started seeing each other but he had found himself falling deeply in love with me.
I was shocked to hear this as we haven’t had sex together and I had no idea how he could fall in love with me so quickly. He told me I possessed everything he wanted in a partner and he wanted to spend his life with me. He said he was no longer seeing anyone else and he wanted to be with me and only me, which totally knocked me off my feet. He told me he had everything I needed and he wanted to take care of me and the kids and he wanted to make my life easier.
He asked me if I would consider marrying him!!!!! OMG, now that was a shocker and my heart almost stopped in fear, I told him I wasn’t ready to get married and I was seeing someone else and he said he did’t care, he would wait for me to “get him out of my system”. This is insane and the craziest thing that has ever happened to me!!!!! Yes, if I did marry him life would be so much easier for the kids and I but how can I marry someone I don’t know let alone love?
He told me to think about it and he had to go so out the door he went and there I sat with my jaw bouncing off the floor. I of course called my girlfriend and told her and she told me to jump at the change like white on rice and she said that I could “learn to love him”. This is such a shocker to me I really do not know what to think or where in the hell this came from.
Me, married??? I don’t know about this even though I really like Francisco but this is just like being knocked on my ass from a fist out of nowhere. I didn’t commit to him but I didn’t say no either, I think because I was so taken aback that I need time to digest this and yes he does have a lot to offer me but I cannot marry someone just because they can give me shit, I just cannot so I don’t know what to do except sleep on it and think about it and do what is best for myself as well as my kids.