I am watching a movie about these kids that lose both parents in an auto accident and how the parents left over four million dollars to the kids. The kid had no family and the parents left their care in the hands of some neighbors, who only wanted the kids money. This movie made me realize once again that my kids have no one if I am to die and I do not have life insurance because I just cannot afford another bill.
What would happen to my children? This is what scares me, not my own death and I do not know how they would make it without me and yes this worries me. My kids would be the only ones that would miss me besides a few friends but nobody else would care that I am gone. I’m nobody special in this world and I am not famous so my death would never be on tv like those well known.
I do not have money or fame and that seems to be all hat this world cares about and most people want to be rich and famous but not I, o no never I. Most people do not want to deal with their death or make arrangements that would make it easier on their family. Most people have relatives to help their children and most people never have to worry about their children when they are gone.
My name is already on the headstone with my husbands and all that is missing is the date of my death. Some people think thinking about such an event is morbid but it actually is being realistic. I need to pay for the crematory box to be removed from the ground so my ashes can be placed in the empty space next to my husbands and the reburial of the box.
I have told my daughter I just want a simple cremation and burial, no showing and nothing fancy at all. I figure if you didn’t see me alive then why the hell would you want to see me dead? It’s a waste of money expensive funerals but then there are people the world wants to pay homage to but I am not one of those people and never will be. I have done nothing the world has ever noticed and the things I have done are only known to those that I have helped.
I am never going to be more than I am, I am never going to be the president, a famous sports player, a beautiful ballerina, no I will never be more than I am but as long as I am a good person with a good heart then I am satisfied with my life. I worry about my children and the loss of their dad just about killed them and I have always been their rock but what will happen when their rock turns to dust?