I have this boy that comes to me in my dreams and it is so weird as he tells me what is bothering or upsetting him. I know this sounds so whacked but it is the truth. This boy is about 13-14 yrs. old and he has a small frame, he is cute and so damn smart and talented. He has had a tough time with the issues between his parents and he has felt as if he was cast aside when he actually hasn’t been.
Kids feel so much that we as parents have no idea about and this boy is finally coming out of a very insecure stage in his life. He is trying to adjust to the changes that come with age and he has had a difficult time expressing his emotions. He has felt as if he would never be good enough and he has felt that he has been compared to his father by so many and he has felt that he must walk in his father’s shoes.
This boy is so much like his father but he is so different in his own right as well. The next 24 months will bring major change to this child and he will find his own nitch which makes me so happy. I have felt this boys pain and loss and I have felt his inferiority as well which is painful for me as I feel his pain and all of the emotions he has been experiencing. This boy has something quite special about him but I do not know what it is I can only feel it.
I’m so happy that things will lighten up for him and have and he is feeling closer to his dad these days which is so very important. His mother has been a primary influence on him and he has wanted his parents to work things out but he is finally excepting that this will not happen and it pains him but he is finally ok with it, not happy with it but ok with it. His eyes tell a story that very few can read and his heart is so big and this boy is so full of love that he touches everyone near him.
His laughter is infectious and his smile melts the coldest of hearts yes this boy will shine in his own shadow and people will want to be near him always as he has a gift that others will envy. This boy makes me smile finally and my heart no longer aches for him as it once did because he was so troubled not to long ago.