I love reading and learning and I really enjoy expanding my  sexual experiences and knowledge. I need a partner to try tantric sex with because it sounds so damn sensual, so romantic and exciting to me.  People are to quick to orgasm and do not enjoy their partner enough and take the time to be romantic which leads to excitement in my experiences. 

How many people have you slept with that made your toes literally curl? How about giving you shivers up your spine or made the hair raise on you arm?? That is what a fantastic sexual experience is about and that is how you feel when you are with someone who physically excites you. I enjoy sex so much and pleasing my partner actually excites me quite a bit.

I enjoy hearing him suck in his breath,  putting his hands in my hair and clutching me as he orgasms or I get him almost there. I love to take my time and slowly arouse my partner to a point of pure ecstasy. I like romance and kissing, slow carresses and romance in general because it makes the sexual experience more than just sex, more than an orgasm.

Maybe one day I will be able to share this type of experience with the green eyed monster because yes he is my soulmate and I know in my heart what is to eventually be but I won’t wait, no I will continue to find my happiness in another even though I doubt that will ever happen. We belong together because it is written and you can deny it all you want but you know what your heart wants my dear.

To Absorb

Reading is so stimulating for the mind and when we read someone’s blog we are reading more than words, more than their experience and more than just their life. We read to learn, to expose truths, to discover another. As a person that likes to read as well write I have learned to use words to express every emotion a person can feel, I have exposed the most intimate and private moments of my life.

When you begin to read about someone’s life if the writing is good and interesting to you, you become part of their life in your mind. You begin to think what it would be like to be in their life and how you could enhance their life. You actually become a friend to that person even though  they have no idea you are there. It’s odd how reading about someone elses life can affect us so much.

We can actually begin to have empathy for that person, we read and we laugh  at some of the things they have written and yes we even want to cry for that person at times. I have shared so much of myself that I wonder if I haven’t given to much of myself away. I wonder if anyone that reads this has a clue what lies deep within my heart, do they really have any idea of the type of person I really am?

We can learn so much about a person by reading their writings, paying attention to what they are saying without putting it into proper words. People are very easy to figure out but when you read what they write they may confuse you. Confusion is part of expressing ourselves and yes I can flip back and forth like a fish, emotionally that is and can understand how I could confuse someone.

People that write about themselves as most do in blogs are somewhat confident and really do not care what others think of us. We share our experiences and we hope that one day what we write may help someone, or so I do hope that. I also hope that one day I will be able to write about the meeting of my soulmate, my future life mate, the person that will fill my void and keep a smile on my face.

I hope one day he can see how much I love him and it’s in the purest form and I hope he can see that I am transparent and my love is deep as any ocean and as wide as the world.  He will read that I live to make him happy, I live to make him smile and my life is barren without him as his is without me. Maybe one day he will realize what he has known all along and that is we belong together.


There are so many pitfalls of being single and it has it’s merits but it isn’t all peaches and cream. Being a single mother is a lonely life and it sucks when the kids are gone and I’m watching tv by myself, eating dinner by myself and just thinking by myself. I have my pets that give me much comfort but they are not a man, they do not have arms to hold me or a shoulder to cry on.

So many people say they enjoy being single but the truth is they do not and yes they want to have a connection with another person. All of us search for love and when we find it we think we are in heaven or at least pretty darn close to it.  When we finally do meet someone we enjoy there seems to always be something seriously fucked up somewhere and it just doesn’t work out.

It doesn’t work out because it isn’t suppose to because that person isn’t your soulmate, they are not your final destination and they can not fill the void. The only one that can do that for us is our soul mate and when the time is right our soulmate will appear in our lives. Some people question if someone else is their soulmate and they question if they should even try with that person.

Our soulmate is the person we are always thinking of, the person we dream about and fantasize about constantly. Our soulmate may be miles away but we know, yes we know in our heart that the person we are meant to be with is within our grasp. Some people like to play around before they settle with their soulmate but they must realize that they are denying themselves the pleasure of pure love.