Have you ever felt free yet confined? Have you ever felt that in your own little world you could live your life as you chose but once out in society you had to conform? That is how I feel so much of the time, as if the world cannot understand me so I am forced to conform to expectation of the world and I can no longer be myself. I’m a very open minded person and I am quite a stickler on so very few things but still a stickler.
I wish I could be myself all of the time but one cannot live with peace in this world unless we fall under society’s rule. We are expected to be so much and never to be a disappointment to anyone for that would take the shine right out of our shinola. We cannot smoke a joint on the street, or walk naked down the street because the world would be to shocked.
We are expected to act appropriately and we are expected to be totally honest in our relationships, which of course we cannot. We cannot tell people what we really think of them because that isn’t acceptable and we are unable to express ourselves to our partner which grows distance and longing for an understanding soul. This is how the end begins of every relationship and this is what drives most men into another’s arms.
It is not possible to be in love with two people at once, no it isn’t and you can easily tell by the distance between the two individuals. The man begins with a slowly wandering eye that grows into an obsession with another woman. When the man is content he stays in the situation even though he doesn’t want to he stays anyway and then he finds someone who fills his thoughts almost constantly, his fantasies are about her and his dreams are filled with her face.
This man will one day leave his current situation to his partners dismay because she has become so used to the behavior of her man that she didn’t notice he subtly changed and pulled away. This man will one day say to himself that yes he wants to be with the one that controls his thoughts and he will step up and finally go after that special woman, that women that possessed him so long ago.