Can’t Do

I enjoyed my time with “C” but it just isn’t going to work and I know it. We just cannot be together and that is never going to change so Im keeping it a clothes on friendship and yes we will continue to talk but I cannot let things go further. The thing is when you see someone and stop seeing them you can never go back.

The problems that were there the first time around resurface and then the regret kicks in and the cycle repeats itself. I wish things were different but they arent and they will not change and I know that. It is just like being married, the problems are there and you can separate and get back together and think things will work out but they usually don’t.

I do not want to go back down the road we were on before and I like him I really do but I will not put myself through anymore crap with him. We had a nice talk about it and both agreed it is best if we remain friends with clothes on. It was actually nice to sit and talk about what went wrong and how it will happen again and both of us agreeing to stay friends.

That is how all of my relationships have ended or most anyway as we part as friends or at least friendly and that’s better than hating each other. I really do not like to argue and try to avoid it at all costs, its not that I do not like confrontation I just do not like to argue when two people can talk things out usually.

I try to handle things in a mature manner and it is rarely that I lose control of my emotions as far as anger and when I do it isn’t pretty at all so I keep that part of myself under control. Both my husband and myself rarely argued even though we didnt always get along we only had one or two real serious arguments and I am glad as we both had very bad tempers.

My C


Got to love “C” he is so fucking hot now isn’t he? I didn’t want to show his face because of privacy issues I have but he is very attractive from head to toe. We had a great day today and went skating as he loves to play hockey, Im no hockey player but I like to skate once in a while and it was fun, he makes me laugh and he is so sweet.

I love the way his muscles ripple down his chest and down his lower stomach and I love the way he feels and smells. Once cannot be without companionship for to long or we go bonkers or at least I do. You do not have to have the perfect body like “C” does but you do have to be a good person with a good heart.

I don’t even mind grey short hair and I do like the younger set as they are fun and I learn from them as they do from me. “C” and I have a unique relationship that most people never will experience and I so do enjoy it. It’s just to bad Gabriel won’t step up his game, ya you you stupid son of a bitch!!! O well, I have “C” back in my life and enjoying my time with him.

To Express

Everyone expresses themselves differently and I use my eyes and my touch to convey much to another person. My eyes can show empathy, laughter, warmth and they can also be as cold as ice at times. When you are intimidate with someone how you touch them tells so much as well and most people do not know how to touch another person.

Yes, you can run your hands over their body in a hurried fashion and yes you can grope another but that is not expressing the warm side of yourself only the sexual desire you have. In this country we are not taught the art of touching and one must educate themselves or be lucky enough to run across someone who is already educated.

When I am being romantic I like to look into the person’s eyes and run the back of my hand down their cheek and neck. I like to kiss them slowly on the lips ears and neck because that is where we feel the touch of another the most unless we are speaking of sexual arousal and then the hips, inner thighs and penis are the parts of the body that enjoy touching.

It is so easy to arouse a man and you do not even have to be naked to do it and you shouldn’t have to expose your body to excite a man. Men aren’t all about sex as most women presume, no men like a smart  woman, a funny woman, a compassionate and independent woman. Men are not out for the quick fuck either, they like to experience the same things women do .

“C” totally gets me and understands why I will not let him enter my body with his own, he understands that passion isn’t about the orgasm and isn’t about fucking at all. He has learned to enjoy my company and I his without penetration and he has missed that so much in his current life. The girl he was seeing fucked or so that is how he described it and he couldn’t get her to understand that he wanted more than penetration and orgasm.

He told me I ruined him because he cannot find a woman like myself and that has him all messed up, lol. Sorry dear heart I am one of a kind I guess and he found that out. “C” is so damn hot he can have any woman but he just can’t seem to find the one that fits perfectly with him so I guess we will continue to see each other and enjoy the laughter.