Ch Ch Ch Changes

We take so much for granted but the changes are blatant when you become single, your entire world changes from the inside out. We take for granted the happy xmases, the gift giving which includes the entire family or in most cases the entire family on both sides. We have these grand get togethers and the food and drinks flow and everyone gets caught up on the family gossip and achievements.

When a couple become single everything changes and the changes scream during the holidays and the constant reminders pop up only to make us feel shitty and to become melancholy. We miss the days of long ago when the kids were little and our love was exciting, we miss the warm glow on the face of the one we love when they open a gift that took weeks for us to pick out just for them.

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We miss that sex that is wrapped around being grateful for all we have and yes there is sex that celebrates how lucky and fortunate we are. We make love because we are horny, a way to express our love and gratefulness and yes all of that disappears when you become single. You are no longer invited to parties that include couples, there is no more family get togethers, you get so few xmas cards and its as if all have forgotten you.  It’s very hard to rebuild our lives but we do eventually and we do heal enough to let someone else in and we allow ourself to trust again.

Bumps and Lumps

My body is built like hills and valleys, bumps and lumps when I am lieing on my side in bed and I become a human obstacle course for my pets. The boys as well as Khloe walk up and down my body as they try to get me to get up and fulfill their needs. It’s funny how Gabriel and Michael literally run from my feet to my shoulder and move the covers from my face.

They love to lick me to wake me up and they love to snuggle up against me in hopes of getting petted. I admit the boys make me laugh more often than not and they are funny to watch at anytime of the day or night. They run around the house trying to get traction on the wood floor as they go sliding around the corner.

They crack me up as they stand on two feet and battle each other making the oddest of noises. Khloe is recovering nicely from her declaw and Bingo just looks at her like she is some kind of crazy, lol. I don’t know what to get the boys for xmas but I  have already ordered something special for Khloe and Bingo and I have no doubt it will be a riot watching them play on xmas morning.

I wish I were one of my pets for a day so I could feel what they feel and experience a day behind their eyes, I think that would be so fun and interesting to see life from their view point. I wonder what their hopes and wishes could be? I wonder what it feels like to be showered with love and affection? I wonder if they get pissed at me?

I wonder what my pets would say to me if they could speak? I wonder why they must lie next to me and be touching me, I wonder if they love me as much as I love them? I know my pets know when I am sad or sick and they are always there trying to cheer me up. I could never live life without pets and those that do not have at least one pet make me wonder how they could be without the love that comes with pets.