Border Boys

A friend of mine is getting married for the fourth time, yes I said the fourth time and she had a bachelorette party last night in Canada. We went to a guys strip club, lmao and I will say that was a first for me because I just don’t go for clubs like that. We arrived and she had a private room set up with all the food and drink anyone could ever want and of course she had a few male strippers join the party.

When I say join I mean they went from shaking their skinny asses to rubbing their junk all over all of us. This didn’t do a thing for me because I do not like hairy men and if someone’s cock is going to be in my face it is going to be a man of my choice. I almost fell out of my chair trying to back away from this guy but he just kept coming at me with his shit practically hanging out.

I decided to take a break and go to the bathroom and the bride followed suit, we  did our business and when we came out of the bathroom we walked smack dab into someone very famous. I excused myself as I was so embarrassed but my friend just thought this was too good to be true. He actually invited us to his table for a drink and I went because my girlfriend accepted for both of us and I didn’t want to be rude.

He was pretty loaded already and he thought he had the right to touch my ass, nope you fucking asshole I don’t care who you are no ass for you from me! I am not going to say his name because it isn’t your business and besides I wouldn’t give him the time of day. My girlfriend, the bride was so infatuated with this guy that she started playing pocket pool with him under the table.

I excused myself and went back to the party and she finally showed back up several hours later. I asked her where the hell she went and she told me she would tell me tomorrow and true to her word she called me today. She told me she banged the guy! WTF???? You are getting married and you fuck another man??? She made me promise not to tell anyone but I did tell her she wasn’t ready to get married again and she begged to differ with me.

If you fuck or suck someone else shortly before you get married then you are nowhere near ready to commit and maybe its just me but I have lost all respect for my friend. I know I shouldn’t be so judgmental but damn how can anyone fuck someone just because they are famous? How fucking shallow can one be??? I am supposed to attend this wedding and I cannot knowing what I know and I cannot tell anyone so I’m going to have to come up with some excuse not to attend.

The Greatest Gift

the greatest gift you can give anyone is hope and I believe that with my whole heart. I can remember the day the Dr. told my husband and I he only had a month to live and I was so shocked at such news. The look on the Dr.s face told me that this wasn’t the kind of news she wanted to tell us or to tell anyone for that matter. We had hope in our hearts but when she delivered the news the hope was snatched away just like that.

For some of us hope is all we have and when people play games with us or attempt to mind fuck us it takes our hope away. I have had hope for years to meet the man that is going to change my life but what do I get? I get men that play stupid games online and I know they will disappear as fast as they appeared and they talk nothing but bullshit and I do not believe anything they say anyway.

I believe that man is just to damn afraid to meet me like I am going to call the tabloids if we were ever to meet. He plays games as well and it doesn’t make him look manly in the least but instead it makes him look very immature and self centered. He seems to enjoy pretending to be someone else and he gets off on leading me on so all I have to say to him is go fuck yourself Gabriel, when you grow up let me know, maybe I will be available but don’t bet on it.

Special

So many people want to meet the rich and famous but me the only person I would like to meet is Dr. Paolo Macchiarini. This man has done something that no other Dr. has been able or willing to do. He has taken stem cells from his patients in need and has been able to give them new trachias, now that is a man who has my attention, he has my interest and my admiration.

It is people like this that impress me the most because they are saving people one patient at a time. Almost everyone in my family are nurses except me because I cannot handle watching anyone or anything suffer. I actually take on their pain and suffering and it isn’t something I want to do but do just the same. I am to empathetic and cannot stand to see anyone in pain yet I cannot help put them out of their misery.

If you are one of those people who others want to meet because you are famous or rich take a step back and ask yourself what can you do to help others? What can you give from your heart that will help another? In the main stream of life is your fame or fortune really that important or is the person you are more important and what you can give? It’s not a crime to be rich and or famous but we must remember to keep ourselves in check when we believe we are entitled.

I would prefer to spend an hour with Dr. Macciarini than to spend a lifetime with someone who is famous or rich and is stuck on themselves. Medicine has always had my interest and at one time I wanted to be a Dr. but new that dream could never be reached and I gave up my hope on that dream. I do not know where my life is headed but I have so much to give and one day, yes one day someone is going to cherish what I have to offer.

Divine Intervention

There are people who do not believe in divine intervention but I am not one of those people because I believe everyone comes and goes in and out of our lives for a reason. You could be a billionaire and if you are meant to meet someone who is “regular” than it will happen because it is meant to be. It doesn’t matter what your standing is in life or what you have accomplished because what is meant to be will come to pass.

I believe all of us have something to offer someone else and when our work is done we move on as friendships drift apart as well as relationships. You cannot run and you cannot hide from things that are meant to be, all you can do is keep on keeping on and things come to pass. I also believe we go through difficult years because those years help us look at live differently and we grow so much.

When two people are meant to be together they will be and there is nothing that can stop the meeting. There are some so afraid to reach their hand out to the person they are meant to be with but eventually that fear subsides and the meeting takes place. We also cannot judge when or where we will find love as love finds us when we least expect it and all we can do is sit back and wait for that special time.

To Detest

I asked my son if he would help around the house and he told me he would do everything to not help but to be a pain in the ass. He told me he detested me and if I hadn’t threatened to call the police if he didn’t come home he would have stayed at his friends house. He also told me he was going to get a job with his friend washing dishes, like that is going to support him. He doesn’t do a damn thing but stay in the basement and on the computer and he does nothing else.

If my daughter asks him to do something he generally will but me, nope he totally ignores me and goes back to the computer. I limit the computer access at 11 p.m. because I cannot stand when he is screaming and yelling while he is playing the game he is addicted to. I have tried to be a good mother but I have either failed miserably or he is just at that age or it’s his age and his bipolar.

I still haven’t gotten him to go to a therapist and he hasn’t taken his meds in so long and refuses to. I no this is so sorry but I really do not care if I see or speak to him all day because he is so hateful and rude to me. All he can see is his own world and he isn’t happy but I cannot change that and he obviously has no desire to change his own life. He told me he was moving out when he turned 18 and I am looking forward to it.

It’s such a terrible thing to know that someone is so ill and you can do nothing about it because I cannot get him hospitalized until he threatens to hurt someone or himself or he actually does it. Why is it that there is no help for parents like me until something catastrophic happens? He attempted to kill be before and I will not be surprised if he tries and is successful, then and only then will he get the help he needs.

George

So many people are surprised that George Clooney is finally getting married but I am not in the least surprised. Everyone wants to have love and to be happy and even a single man eventually wants to share his life with someone. I have no doubt that George poked more than his share of women but the woman he is marrying isn’t the type of lady that has been poked by a large number of men.

George has found his lady love and he knows that her vagina was visited by few men. She isn’t a woman that kisses and tells and she isn’t one that wants to be in the tabloids. She tolerates it because it is part of the George package but she prefers to live without it. I  like this woman because she and I are a lot alike in many ways and neither one of us needs or wants the tabloids in our lives.

Eventually, I will find the man that wants a woman worth keeping and I am that kind of woman. I like my privacy and I prefer to stay home and cook dinner than to  be going out all of the time. I also prefer to stay home and cuddle with the man that is in my life and I prefer to spend my time sharing romantic times. I am not without my own fault but I am not one looking for the lights, camera and action.

I have dated several very wealthy men but they were into the fame of their game and no where near ready to settle down. They liked being treated special and getting what ever they wanted and it was a turn off to me. I am happy with food on my table and my bills paid and maybe I am not ambitious enough for certain people but frankly I do not care because I am who I am and if that isn’t good enough for someone then they can hit the road.

Orange

Shelby and I just finished watching the new season of Orange is the New Black on Netflix and I love this show! You will never see it on regular tv because of the nudity but this show is so entertaining without the nudity and I would really like to see it on regular broadcasting. I was in jail so I can relate to quite a bit of the show and yes some of it is quite far fetched but most of it is really what it is like.

There are women with tattoos, lesbians and those that think they are bad asses and yes the food reminds me of something maggots would eat. You have to watch your toilet paper because you only get one roll a week for two people and if your roomie is on the toilet too much then you are literally shit out of luck. All you have to look forward to is your next meal and food is used to barter with.

Some of the girls had money put on a tab for them and they could buy stuff from the store that came around once a week. We got to go to the gym an hour every couple of days and we got to see someone who was supposed to help us as far as contacting family or our lawyer. The woman who was supposed to do that for us threw away the numbers and never made a single damn call for anyone.

We were woke up at 6 a.m. and the tv was on at 9 a.m. so all we had to do was to eat and watch tv, shower, sleep or work out in our cells. The doors were left unlocked but we were not allowed in another’s cell. I was so lucky because our toilet plugged up and our room smelled like shit constantly and we couldn’t get anyone to fix it. They eventually moved us to another cell and a big day for me was getting an apple for lunch.

I lived on apples because the food was so bad and so damn gross. We had one shower and it was filthy and so damn gross and the toilet was at the front of the cell so everyone could watch you take a shit, how exciting is that??? I was there for two weeks and all I did was stay in my cell and read, yes we were allowed some books and I read everything from religious stuff to love stories.

You have no idea what it is like to lose your freedom and to live within four walls and I can tell you it isn’t something you would like to experience.  I was finally released because my daughter finally got to my bank account and my checks had been deposited and I can tell you it was the best feeling in the world. I was so happy to get out of that place that I didn’t even wait to get my meds released and I will never end up in that situation again!

Orange

Shelby and I just finished watching the new season of Orange is the New Black on Netflix and I love this show! You will never see it on regular tv because of the nudity but this show is so entertaining without the nudity and I would really like to see it on regular broadcasting. I was in jail so I can relate to quite a bit of the show and yes some of it is quite far fetched but most of it is really what it is like.

There are women with tattoos, lesbians and those that think they are bad asses and yes the food reminds me of something maggots would eat. You have to watch your toilet paper because you only get one roll a week for two people and if your roomie is on the toilet too much then you are literally shit out of luck. All you have to look forward to is your next meal and food is used to barter with.

Some of the girls had money put on a tab for them and they could buy stuff from the store that came around once a week. We got to go to the gym an hour every couple of days and we got to see someone who was supposed to help us as far as contacting family or our lawyer. The woman who was supposed to do that for us threw away the numbers and never made a single damn call for anyone.

We were woke up at 6 a.m. and the tv was on at 9 a.m. so all we had to do was to eat and watch tv, shower, sleep or work out in our cells. The doors were left unlocked but we were not allowed in another’s cell. I was so lucky because our toilet plugged up and our room smelled like shit constantly and we couldn’t get anyone to fix it. They eventually moved us to another cell and a big day for me was getting an apple for lunch.

I lived on apples because the food was so bad and so damn gross. We had one shower and it was filthy and so damn gross and the toilet was at the front of the cell so everyone could watch you take a shit, how exciting is that??? I was there for two weeks and all I did was stay in my cell and read, yes we were allowed some books and I read everything from religious stuff to love stories.

You have no idea what it is like to lose your freedom and to live within four walls and I can tell you it isn’t something you would like to experience.  I was finally released because my daughter finally got to my bank account and my checks had been deposited and I can tell you it was the best feeling in the world. I was so happy to get out of that place that I didn’t even wait to get my meds released and I will never end up in that situation again!

Two Things

A man is born with two things, his word and his balls and he should never break either for anyone. A man needs to be loved and he needs a woman that he can trust to be with him for himself and not what he has. Money changes people and anyone that says different has never had money and you do not have to be wealthy to know what I am talking about. My husband and I made a very good living and we wanted for nothing and I watched my husband change into someone I didn’t know.

He always thought bigger was better because he never went without when he was growing up and I on the other hand lived hand to mouth for many years. We barely could afford to put a roof over our heads and food on the table and yes I got free lunch at school and meals left on the porch during the holidays. I have lived better than I do now but I am quite comfortable with my current standing in life.

I don’t need money and I don’t need fancy clothes or a fancy house all I need is to love and to be loved. I really hate shopping unless I am at the grocery because I love to cook for others. My happiness comes from feeding friends and once family but now that it just me and the kids I no longer cook extravagant meals. Doing for others is what makes me happy and giving from the heart is what I do best.

I am no better than anyone else but some people are just losers and you have to see them for what they are and walk away. My husband thought living in a bigger, fancier house made him a man of class but the truth is he never even knew what class meant and he sure didn’t have it. When you try to buy yourself into society you  really go nowhere and people see you for what you really are and it sure doesn’t include being a person of class.