I wish you would meet someone so you would forget about me even though that won’t be easy because I am a one of a kind. I’m silly, crazy, funny, kind, considerate, caring, loving and so much more and no one compares to me. Saying that, I really wish you would allow yourself to let someone in your life because you won’t let me and you need someone who you can trust and rely on to be there.

What you are looking for in a woman isn’t easily found and even though you have found it in me you refuse yourself to let me into your life. It’s time for you to forget about me and move onto a real woman,  a woman who will care for you for who you are inside and I am sure you can find that type of woman out there somewhere in all of your travels. I know what I have to offer a man and you do to but for some reason you just refuse to let me in.

You need to quit living in a fantasy world and join the real world once again without me on your mind. You spend way to much time focusing on my life and what I am doing that you have forgotten about yourself and your happiness. I truly wish you the best and hope you will open yourself up to someone because you need to be loved so bad that it is breaking my heart to see you this way.


I woke up this morning at 4:18 because Khloe decided she wanted to play and get some loving. She rubbed on my hand until I woke up and then I played with her a bit because I couldn’t fall back to sleep. As I laid there for some unknown reason I began to think about every person that has fucked me over in the last five years and wow what a long list it was.

I do not know why we go through a series of bad years and then a series of good and so on but life is like that for some reason. I think karma comes and teaches us many lessons but I also believe that with the bad great things come to us in time. It’s time for great things to start to happen to me and I am waiting as patiently as I can because I know things are going to start working in my favor.

I started wondering about where I will be in five years and how my life will change hopefully for the better, in fact I know for the better. Do you ever wonder what type of person will be in your life five years from now? Do you ever wonder if you already know that person? All I want is to be happy and to spend the rest of my life laughing and sharing my life with that one special person, how about you?