Lost In Thought

Have you ever just sat back and thought to yourself how different your life could be? O but you made a commitment to honor and be faithful right? Nobody had warned you that you would change, your spouse would change and distance would be a comfortable middle for both of you. You have promised to stay at least until your youngest child is gone and on their own, right? Did it ever occur to you the older your kids are the harder they take a split between their parents? Did it ever occur to you that you could die tomorrow? Why don’t we think about our own happiness? Very simple, because we feel a responsibility and we do not want to let anyone down, especially our parents.

We let ourselves float from one day to the next and we find someone out of nowhere that we are attracted to and that person is all we can think of. We wrestle with the guilt we feel and we wish we were single and available.

Our emotions become so overbearing and we fight not to let ourselves get to attached to that one special person. As the days go on and we get to know more and more about the person our desire to be with them begins to rule our every thought.

Then we wake up one day and realize that we are scaring ourselves because we just might make the move that we promised ourselves we would never make. When we are honest with ourselves we already know that if we are not happy neither is our spouse and they are probably thinking the same thing we are but we are to scared to talk to them about it so we continue to live for the day that we can make the move we so badly want to, need to.


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