Education Station

Well, my son managed to get himself suspended from school last Friday. I have been trying to get him registered in a high school down the street for troubled kids. There are pregnant teens, teens with babies, drug and theft issues and you name it.

The high school has daycare and special counseling for these kids. Ryan will hopefully fit in and I am sure he will. I also think he will be very helpful to the girls because he loves kids and is so good with them.

I am so hoping he gets a girlfriend and I think this school is the perfect “catching” ground for him. He hates school and I can’t blame him because he gets so bored because he is to smart, like his grandfather was.

Both of my kids are very smart and Shelby will probably be valedictorian or valedictorian. Ryan excels at the classes he likes and he hates religion and going to mass. He wants me to take him to school so he can get his things from his locker.

I think he wants me to take him so he can tell the principal to fuck off. The principal will get pissed and look at me for parental take over but all I would be able to do is look at him and tell him I agree with Ryan.

Sometimes, you have to take your kids side when you feel the same way and not be a hypocrite and do one thing and say another. I think I will take him so he has something to brag about to the new kids he is to meet.

I am so thrilled these kids have someone to talk to, in fact numerous people to talk to and as soon as my son gets a gf, it’s condom shopping straight away.

I hope he knows how to use them because I am not showing him, well maybe I guess I can get out a banana but then I would embarrass the shit out of him. I am sure he knows how to use one, I think-hell I don’t know.

 

The Michael Lick

I got my puppies yesterday and what a riot! Michael and Gabriel, my Archangels are just adorable. Ryan held them all the way home and now Michael is crazy for Ryan. They have the best personalities and Michael is the adventurous one and Gabriel follows him but he is more laid back.

Puppy love is wonderful therapy and the change in Ryan is phenomenal and I am surprised that he is being so responsible and taking care of them. He thinks it’s great that Michael has chosen him over me and that is fine because Ryan is laughing and playing with them and I haven’t seen Ryan this happy since he was a baby.

 

When we got home Ryan was sitting on the couch and Michael started licking his face and Ryan just laughed and laughed. He is really enjoying these little guys and I am to. I am never amazed how pets are wonderful therapy for anyone and those fighting depression cannot hold back their empathy for these little guys

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I have also noticed the smaller the dog the depressed person is liable to be more taken by the puppy. I think the reason for this is they are so small that you automatically feel they need to be protected. I have steps for the puppies because if they jump off the couch they could really hurt a leg.

These little guys warm the cockles of my heart and make me smile. These little ones are my angels and they are a great investment for me. Investing in your own happiness is important and that is what I am doing, finally investing into my own happiness, and no I do not feel one bit guilty.

 

Day Dilema

What a day, wow I am glad it is time to relax. Had to drive an hour to pick up my yorkie puppies, Michael and Gabriel and they are brothers but the personalities are quite different and distinct already.

I shouldn’t have spent the money on them but it’s time for me to love me and show myself some kindness and buy myself something I have wanted since my other guys were given away.

I told the kids do not buy me anything for xmas because I got the puppies. I have started to pick up a few items for Shelby and she is coming over tomorrow for dinner. We had a huge fight yesterday and then I thought about it.

It’s hard for me to  accept that I am wrong and say I am sorry but I do do it. I had to finally admit to myself and my daughter that her living at her boyfriends and graduating from high school is hard for me.

I am losing someone I love very much but I have to let her make her own way in this world and under the circumstances it isn’t fair to her. It is hard to admit that your child is growing up, no let me rephrase that, she is grown up.

It has been so hard on her and her senior year without her dad has been really hard for her and her graduation is going to be hard for me. I’ve got her a job lines up with my attorney and she will be going to college in the fall and working.

I feel so bad that Bob spent the kids college money but what can I do? Maybe it is a good thing who knows. I am trying to pay off school and put money away to get her a car for graduation.

Ryan got expelled yesterday and I think that is also a blessing, it saves me money on tuition and Ryan is going to an alternative school which is for troubled and pregnant, trying to get these kids to graduation instead of dropping out.

The kids have grown up fast like Ryan and some have problems like Ryan and others have worse problems. Some classes may have 15 kids and some may only have 5 kids so this will be good.

The puppies have stolen Ryan’s heart and Michael took right to Ryan. Gabriel is just as cute but their personalities are so different. I am glad that Michael took to Ryan because it makes Ryan feel special.

 

 

 

 

The Meeters

He contacted me online yesterday, said he was my soul mate and I began to think how he is more attractive to me the older he gets and he look like such a playful type of man, a man who is so much more a kid then a man in many ways. Ways that make life so fun, so crazy and silly.

How can I love this man so much and I have never met him? How can I think of nobody else but him all day? Why do I think of him when I am really sad and lonely? He is my rock as I have no one else but to be honest I really wouldn’t want anyone else to be that important to me.

He holds a place in my heart that no one has ever held and he means the world to me just as he is, no I do not want him to change a thing about himself as he is perfect just the way he is. He makes me laugh and he keeps me smiling when I need to the most, he’s a silly, crazy kind of person with a good heart.

I wish he would  do something special for my birthday like take me out to dinner, show himself for once and really be there for me for a change but I know that isn’t going to happen even though I will wish for that time to happen, even though I already know I will be letdown.

When The Snow Flys

I hope this winter serves me well and I have someone to wrap my arms around and keep me warm. Winter is so fun when you have someone to play in the snow with and throw snowballs at and this winter is going to be like non other.

I have lost so many including my pets in the last year and I am going to get two more min yorkies male and female the female being bigger of course to carry those babies. I miss my dogs so much and I am getting some new puppies or traveling the world one of the two.

I have a deliciously naughty secret I wish I could share with you but you know how to keep a secret a secret? Don’t tell anyone so you will just have to wait until next Tuesday because I will be busy the next several days.

I really enjoy being naughty and risqué as I find it a rush like the football player when he scores a goal. Some think I am absolutely without shame and I am outrageous, I choose to think of myself honest and straight forward.

I am quite open but there are some things I prefer not to share with others, like making out I just won’t do it in public, in fact I do not like to display any affection at all in public as I feel that should be kept between two people.

I know it makes no sense that I would have sex on the hood of a car but not kiss or make out in public. The two are not the same, not at all sex on a hood is one of those rare things that happen during a rare occasion.

I think kissing is romantic and should be private and between two people and those two people only. I am a private person and I do not care for loud, busy places no I am more the quiet dark restaurant type that likes to sit in the corner of the restaurant.

It’s hard to explain the way this time of year makes me feel, it’s like a peaceful time of year as everything is dying. I know that sounds odd but when things end new things begin and I am hoping that something wonderful and new happens to me soon.

I so wish I had someone to spend the season with and share private moments with and I know soon enough this will happen. I have never given up no I have not and I have never closed the door but yes I am guilty of trying to walk away.

I get frustrated and have no patience and the pressure and stress gets to me at times. There are times I have felt that I could not take another step or shed another tear. Those days are behind me now and I am finally ready to welcome someone into my life.

Silly Is As Silly Does

Why are people always so serious? So many have their panties in a wad and can’t laugh at a damn thing including themselves. I thrive on stupid silly shit because it makes me laugh and laughter is awesome.

Life has become to demanding and rushed, there are no more leisure strolls and watching the flowers grow, everyone is in such a hurry and rude, damn people have become so rude. People do not like to get stupid because it may “reflect” poorly on them.

Well screw that is what I say, enjoy life and take it in for all it’s worth. Embrace that sunshine and whirl in the wind, smile laugh, laugh a lot.I think people have lost the “fun” in themselves and find something like a picnic by a lake to be to mundane for their lifestyle. I would so love to to have a simple picnic next to a lake, my word that is a great time to me. Yes, I am simple and boring to most, but you know what? I don’t give a damn about anyone else.