I can feel the snowflakes landing on my eyelashes and I stick out my tongue in hopes of catching a few random ones. I am lit by the light pole in my yard as I open my arms and twirl embracing the cool night. I decided to take a walk and clear my head because I am a very confused person at this moment.
I push I pull I walk and turn and run back, my head feels like it’s been put in a blender but for some reason I still believe in fate. I belief everything happens for a reason and people come and go for a reason. It infuriates me that I cannot figure out why and it’s hard to accept the fact that it is not for me to know.
I get so angry and really pissed today and I finally realized why, I didn’t take any pain meds and every movement hurts. I took a bath and had my daily chat with”him”. I put on my other site for him to view when he is bored, which appears to be most of the time. I know he thinks Im just another pretty face and hot body but the truth is I can cook and bake as well, in fact cooking in the nude is so fun and maybe one day he will want to partner up but I doubt it.
I have been so damn mean and hateful and confused as well as hurt, this last week fucked up my head so bad I just can’t wrap my brain around it and I am lashing out in the dark because I do not know what else to do.Fate do you belief in fate? My kitchens open so let’s cook baby.