It’s always been so strange to listen to my friends tell me how “in love” they were because I never felt that, ya when I was thirteen but not since then so I guess that makes me an odd ball. I was always to embarrassed to ask them what it felt like to be in love.
Ya, I made out, got felt up and felt down a few myself but nothing that shook the earth, made me not eat, sleep or think of anything else, my heart never skipped the beat or came close once to missing the beat. I’ve never blown off friends for a guy or changed plans.
I have never felt that all consuming feeling that makes you stupid and do real dumb things, until one day I was struck with this lightening bolt of emotion out of no where. I started getting these stupid grins on my face as I day dreamed about him, thought of him constantly and always distracted by worrying or wondering what was up with him.
I have found myself becoming more physical with my body every time I think of him and he makes me want to make love. He makes me passionate and feel desirable, he makes me like who I am and he makes me laugh and smile.
It’s very difficult to understand where someone is coming from when you are reading chat as there is no flection no voice to way the meaning behind the words. You know you have a connection with someone when you know they finally get you and understand your off the wall humor.
Well, he is finally getting me and that feels good because he has misread me for so long, thinking I thought I was better then others, smarter, and I do not know what else. He is finally seeing that I am an asshole, yes I am but I say it all with humor.
I never call anyone anything I wouldn’t call myself so yes I am an asshole, are you into anal sex? Grab a coat and have some tunnel love, lol told you I was an asshole. I have been in such a silly mood lately, really playful and free and it’s fun as hell.
It’s fun feeling good and playful and it’s fun looking forward to a week away with a man that actually can talk beyond steel mill mentality. That’s one thing about Detroit being a factory and steel mill county, people never bettered themselves because the money was good in fact great.
Hell, my own husband never read a thing, o I take that back he had no problem reading the checks that we got from my investing. Shit, he tried to throw away books because he hated me to read and not make him the focus of my world.
I am just so damn excited about this trip, I cannot even tell you and I need this so bad and I am sure he needs it worse than I do but together we will be burning down the house. He is going to have more fun than he has ever had in his entire life.