History

I like history and I like watching about history on tv. I am fascinated with Hitler, yes I realize what he did and that is what I find so fascinating. How can one man get a nation to believe every word he says? How did he do that? Where times so bad that he was the only hope so the people thought?

His testing on twins and the deformed was unbelievably cruel and being so devious he had gas chambers built for human extermination. Did people follow his direction out of fear? Committment to his cause? I never seem to be able to watch a complete show on the Nazi era but I do find it so very interesting from a psychological point.

I enjoy watching and studying people and I find it funny that my stalker can’t seem to figure me out, like I am a puzzle. I am simple to understand, it’s when you try to understand me to hard is when you get screwed up. I am straight forward and honest I want him but I am so lonely that I will settle for less just for comfort. 

I know I should wait for when we can meet because we will meet eventually or should I try to fill the void in my life and do what is best for me. Of course I am going to try to fill the void but honestly, I do not see that happening. When I commit to something or someone I do not turn my back and walk away. I never seem to want to give up, that is the fool in me.