It’s All Mental

It is so hard to wait for someone and it must be equally as hard to want to be with someone but you cannot, at least not at that time. When we wait we build up a vision of the person as we see them, not as they are.

It is hard to hold on to your dreams, hopes and wishes when you do not have the important answers. One thing I do know is when two souls belong together they definitely will eventually be together.

Love is one of the strongest emotions we have and it controls us like no other. Men want love to but differently from women and men want sex. If you keep your man sexually satisfied and mentally stimulated you will have a happy life.

 

X Me Please

Breaking up is hard to do when you are the one being dumped but when you are the “dumper” it feels like such a weight off of your shoulders. I always felt so bad when dumping someone and I would always say “it’s me not you”, when in fact it was me and not them. They just didn’t have that zing I needed in my relationships and more likely than not it was sexual incompatibility for me.

I know, I am slutty right? I demand a healthy sex life and one that  is adventurous and I will not apologize for limiting missionary. I am not sorry I am sexually expressive or find the missionary style so damn boring. I demand a healthy sex life or my relationships just fizzle as so many have done prior to my marriage and included my marriage.

I am not over sexed I just have a healthy attitude toward sex and relationships and if dumping someone because the were a lousy kisser or lousy in bed is the first step to a happy life. Sex and money destroy a relationship so easily so why settle for something or someone who doesn’t fulfill you?

So Many Lack

So many people lack confidence, they fear rejection and do not want others to see the real person that they are. They hide within themselves until someone special comes into their lives and opens Pandora’s box. This person is understanding and accepting of all of your faults and failures and they still lift you up.

They see the real you, the person you don’t want others to know because the pain in your life paints your heart a deep crimson and you fear that color will be brightened once again. You cannot bare the pain that comes with love and lost of love and you do not know how to move forward.

You seek love at every turn and think you find it over and over because you are actually in love with being in love. You so enjoy the feeling of being in love that you get into relationships that end up draining you and taking a part of you out the door. You refuse to accept the truth before you and you fight it every day.

The woman who should be in your life is before you but you are too foolish to let her in. You waste time with one that will not fulfill you even though you accept what is offered on the surface. Side by side night after night exhausted and not missing sex does not make a happy relationship.

The relationship you seek is true, all-consuming and you think of no one but her all day and dream of her at night. You stalk her and fantasize about her touch and you touching her. You dream of making love to her and think of her when you are making love to AB, it’s time to stop and look at where your life is headed and who you plan on being with forever.

Who Is He?

He is a very, compassionate young man of 17, he has no parents and lives with a step father and his wife. He is a great kid and has come to be a very good friend to me. He helps me with anything I need and he listens to me, he is not a young man of 17 intellectually and his compassion is incomparable.

He sat he with me the last few nights and hugged me while I broke down, it wasn’t sexual or sensual-it was one person comforting another-he made me something to eat, has cleaned up for me and ran errands. We are not lovers, not even close-in more like I have another son.

I do not know what I would have done without James, honestly I believe he has saved my life in many ways. I am helping him as much as I can and he is helping me tenfold. So if you think we have a sexual relationship-turn around and do not even go there and even though I am dealing with a bad situation, I try to focus on something else for a while and I write.

You fool, I will write of you, us, my fantasies and that isn’t going to change, so get a fucking grip, quit trying to make me jealous and hurt me because it isn’t going to work. I wish you all the happiness in the world what more could you possibly ask for? You are the master of your mind and if you let it wonder, it will take you into places you shouldn’t even go.

Multi-Dating

How do you feel about dating more than one person at a time? Or living with someone and you are the new flavor and she has become nothing but “filler” in his life? There are people that must have someone in their life at all times and others like myself that doesn’t need that space constantly filled.

Some people need to have feelings stronger for someone else before they can make the move they know they should have made a long time ago. The relationship is comfortable and she has been there for him and they like each other as people.

He just doesn’t feel the spark and fireworks he wants to feel, he feels it when he is talking with the other one and of course she is none the wiser. They meet, click, really click and then he has some tough work to do and his life becomes hell for a while.

He is willing to do what he must to finally have what he has wanted for so long and she is finally here with him by his side and he is feeling everything ten fold now. He makes his presence known to her online by the fb pokes and the subtle posts.

I think you should make your move first and then do your searching because to many emotions get involved and people get hurt. I hope that isn’t the case here but one never knows now does one? Wouldn’t it be scary for me to open the room door to a midget, bald and talks like a munchkin? lol