Nickels And Dimes

I have spent the better part of today adding stuff on amazon and ebay and wrapping books to ship tomorrow. I spent several weeks getting all of my books together and anything I can sell instead of giving it away. Last week and this week have brought in over 200 dollars which is always needed.

I am selling as much stuff as I can because I do not want it and when I move it will be so much easier. I have this huge house that I cannot maintain any longer or keep clean. My husband was fanatical about cleaning because he had nervous energy and he was always in the wheelchair in the house.

Two things my husband was awesome at was keeping the house clean and driving us places. I hate driving, absolutely hate it because I do not like speed limits and cleaning house is a waste of time because I have other things to do that are more important to me. I really cannot wait to sell this house and selling all the crap makes me money plus eliminates crap I do not need.

My son wants the money from his kinnect and other stuff but he seems to forget he just got a 130 dollar speeding ticket, which he will pay for. I am not going to make life easy for him and he is going to have to learn he has to pay for his mistakes just as all of us have to.

I hope Ryan gets a girlfriend at his new school because that would make him feel so good about himself. There is no way my kids meet anyone until Ryan has someone who will love him and he loves her back. The first girlfriend/boyfriend makes a huge difference in a kids life and his happiness is my happiness.



Not everyone has a soulmate, soulmates are brought together by a power stronger than any of us. You can meet your soulmate anywhere at anytime and you don’t always instantly know when you have met that person. Soulmates have an unspoken connection that cannot be described.

You may be very attractive and your soulmate is not attractive to you or others at all but you find something so interesting and mysterious about that one person that constantly attracts you. You may never have met your soulmate but you know there is a connection stronger than anything you have ever felt.

Soulmates, in my opinion are brought together for a special purpose, they have power individually but together they are stronger and more powerful. Soulmates are constantly thinking of each other and no it’s not the same way people in love think of one another.

Soulmates do not look at love the way others do because what they have is a connection deeper than the bone, it goes to the marrow. Nothing can destroy a soulmate connection and they do not have wondering eyes as the pull to their mate is to strong and they fit together like a hand and glove.

When you  are so attracted to someone you want to be with them every minute of every day and the attraction is so, so deep and not like any relationship you have ever had you know you have met your soulmate. Sometimes we meet out soulmate at a young age and sometimes we do not meet them until we are older.

The way I see soulmates is two people who have a “mission” that can only be completed by these two individuals. They change the world in a special way, may it be big or small they make the change happen. These people have such an attraction to each other they can not walk away from each other.

Where Is The Love

People say “I love you” all the time, they say it as easy as saying “hello” or “goodbye”. Telling someone you love them should not be said to use or manipulate someone, saying those words should only be said when they are really from the heart. People say they love you then ask you for money or other material shit.

Don’t tell me you love me and want to do something nice for me, because if you think I want something material you are so damn blind you cannot see me for who I really am. I am not interested in your cheap gifts even if it costs a million dollars, it’s still cheap to me because it’s an easy way out of giving yourself. If you are not willing to give yourself then your love is tainted and useless, cold and barren and means absolutely nothing to me.

I don’t want shiny packages delivered to my door, I want you delivered to my arms and if you cannot do that then go away and stay away because you cause nothing but pain. Wouldn’t it be nice if there were a truth meter? A meter that would expose your lies and sift out the truth, a meter that would show me what is real and what is a lie. You hurt and hurt and think nothing of it and I find that I can no longer hold on to air, dreams in the sky and wishes from the sea.