The Lonely One

I have an online stalker and I really have not a clue of what he wants. I am not beautiful or thin, young and carefree. I am a fighter and scrapper and do what I have to, to get through each day. I have nothing to offer him as I am not wealthy I am only myself and I guess I am such an odd duck that he just can’t let me fly away.

He refuses to meet me or talk to me online and tell me who he really is, even though I already know. He plays games constantly and I just do not get it. He is approximately 7 years younger than I am so I do not see the attraction, I just do not get it. All I know is I have fallen crazy in love with him and I could kick myself in the ass for it.

His world is going to take a huge change shortly and he will be much happier and that makes me happy. I am glad for him because it is about time he started to relax and enjoy life more. I cannot see him  unhappy and I can see he will be quite happy soon enough. I want the same for myself but that has yet to come.

I am beginning to think that he has a lack of self-control, along with possible instability. People want what they cannot have, and some refuse to accept that and move on. He is involved with someone and doesn’t want to let them go and refuses to let me go, now I would say that is a pickle without the burger for sure.

One thing I do know is my life is no longer on hold for him and it is just a matter of time before I finally meet someone and my life will change drastically. He will no longer be part of my thoughts or my blogging, no more in my dreams, hopes or wishes. He will eventually get bored and forget all about me.