Paw Prints

If you take a look around you will find that most people you know have a pet. Most have a cat or a dog or multiples of either or both. You will find “crazy cat ladies” all around the world because they need affection.

People in general need affection and so many of us are alone these days and our pets make us feel loved. I know that when I leave my house my pets miss me as they so love it when I return.

They sit next to me and watch tv or sleep and they sleep on my bed next to me.  I dont know what I would do without the love of my pets. Pets ask so little of us and when I see someone hurting a defenseless animal it makes me crazy.

Everyone needs to feel loved and cared for and there is no age requirement when getting a pet. My daughter is at law school and she has friends but when you do not have a companion in your life, life gets lonely as hell.

She ended up going to a shelter and getting a puppy that is five months old. The sad thing is she is leaving for Chicago to work with the attorney general of cook county and she cannot have the dog.

She has also signed a lease agreement for the fall with two other friends and they dont know if they want to move to another building that will allow dogs. If that is the case I am going to end up taking care of the dog until my daughter can have her at her living quarters.

My daughter called me last night so upset and crying because she doesnt think her new roomies will want to move so Shelby can have the dog. She was crying so hard and told me she was afraid that I would be mad at her.

She sent me a picture of the dog and I told her not to get it but she did anyway. It looks like I am going to end up caring for the dog because my daughter cannot get out of the new lease.

She is twenty years old and has focused on school for the last four years. She graduated with her bachelors degree in three years and that allowed her to start law school a year earlier than her other classmates.

She is extremely book smart but she needs to learn alot about life. She does what she wants and she doesnt listen to me but that is how she learns. I think that is how so many people learn, by trial and error.

Her goal is to return to Washington D.C. and work for the government which is a smart move because of the connections she can make as well as the benefits. There are a lot of movers and shakers in D.C. and she fits right in.

She wants me to move there with her but that just isnt my kind of world. I was raised on a farm by my grandparents and the simple life fulfills my daily desires. I like growing my own food and I so enjoy gardening.

There is nothing like picking a fresh tomatoes and cukes off the vine, wash them cut them up and add some garlic and toss with some balsamic vinegar and oil dressing.  Anyone that really knows me knows that I enjoy baking and cooking and I am pretty good at both.

I have taught my kids the importance of a cast iron pan and I have purchased both of them their own pan. I cook with both of them as I am seasoning them for the kids when they are on their own.

It’s been a long haul the last six years and being a widow since 2011 has taught me much about life. I am not one to be impressed with much and a simple life is all I require for my happiness. Yes, I admit it I am lonely and so wish for male companionship but I refuse to settle for someone just to have another person in my life.

To be honest, I truly miss the touch of a man, sex, hell yes I miss sex and have to rely on masturbation for my own release. So many woman have never experienced an orgasm and have no idea how to achieve the pleasure by themselves.

I enjoy mutual masturbation but that requires another person so I am basically stuck being my own sex partner. There is nothing wrong with talking about the ever so elusive female orgasm or actually experiencing it.

So many men are under the assumption that penetration automatically gives a female an orgasm but this is so wrong. Very few women have orgasms from penetration and we need clitoral stimulation.

So many women need to learn to relax and to let themselves “go” mentally. Every woman should own a vibrator and learn to give themselves an orgasm. Once they become familiar with that pleasure spot then they can teach their partner how to please them.

So many men want a woman to go down on them but refuse to go down on the woman. For some reason men cant get past the thought of someone elses dick being inside of their woman but its ok to have the woman suck the dick that has been in countless other women.

I for one enjoy giving fellatio as long as the garden is kept trimmed. I do not enjoy a face full of out of control curlies and the odor of pubic hair is not enticing to me in the least. Regardless if you have just taken a shower pubic hair has an undeniable odor.

If you do not have a satisfying sex life you will never have a fulfilling relationship. Sex is as important as oxygen especially to men but there are a few of us women out there that enjoy sex just as much as the men.

        

  

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Self Gratification

There are those that love to go shopping and get self gratification from it and then there are those like me that believe self gratification is sexual. I have finally figured out how not to feel so lonely when self gratifying myself, I sit in front of the mirror and then I have company and I am no longer lonely!

I have also learned to hide the 64 pack of batteries from my kids so I never end up right on the edge and the damn batteries go bad. Self gratification is not evil and no you will not go blind or go to hell, if that were the case every man on earth would have a pass to hell already waiting for them.

There are those that have huge sex drives and fall in love with love which leaves them lonely and wondering what they did wrong. When a relationship doesn’t work out, it wasn’t meant to be and you can bet your bottom dollar on that. masturbation is such a dirty word to so many and they refuse to admit they partake.

My mother in law had the biggest black dildo I have ever seen and when she died I found her secret toy box. I threw it all away before my husband could see it because men do not look at their mother’s as sexual beings. From the looks of her toy box she was quite inventive and adventurous.

I would rather masturbate then go screw a bunch of men that I had no what golf course their putter had played on. Let’s be real, in today’s world you have to be so damn careful and cautious. I think the worse combination for anyone to be is over sexed and in love with love.

Those that are in love with love cannot see their desire to be loved so bad that they end up getting hurt and they generally get used. People love to be seen on the arm of the rich and famous and those individuals usually have a very hard time finding true love because the people they fall for are just going to use them up.

I prefer to stick with self gratification then to be with someone who wants only to use me and gain from me. I do feel sorry for those rich and famous people because trying to find real love and a real committment is so damn hard because of their money and fame. Once in a great while they will get a slap in the face by someone who has discovered that the life they want is not the life that the rich and famous live.

One thing I like about self gratification as I am never let down by anyone but myself and yes I do get pissed when I am at the edge and the damn doorbell rings or the phone. I am about to leave a message on the answering machine saying “Sorry, I’m masturbating and will not be disturbed” but then I would no doubt have more trouble at my door.

Let Love In

There are so many people who love someone but they are not with that person. They are either married, engaged, involved with someone else. If you love someone you should let them know, you should tell them face to face not a text or email, that is tacky.

I love someone so much but I cannot express that love because he refuses to come to me. He claims to love me so much but will not come to me. It doesn’t make any sense to me and there is absolutely no excuse he can use that I will buy. I do not ask for much in this world and I would think he would want to be with me.

Maybe I’m porno to him, nice to look at and use for jacking off. I know one thing I have waited a long time to be happy with someone and yes I am ready to move on past my husband. I am so ready it almost hurts.

I had someone tell me last night that I wasn’t ready to move on, how in the hell can anyone tell you if you are ready to move on after a death of your spouse? How in the hell would they know what you feel and think? I am ready to have a relationship with someone and that is something I do know for sure.

The one thing I will never forget is how my husband died, it was terrible and I still see the blood on my hands and shirt, damn leukemia is terrible as your blood cells no longer can stay together and you throw up blood and it comes out of your nose until you finally die.

I will never forget that day and the timing was so ironic, he passed away at 2 p.m. which was an hour before the kids got home and enough time to have his body removed from the house. He was in a hospital bed and I called and had them take it out of the house that day.

So you see, after that experience and a year and one half later I am ready to move on, I am ready for a committed relationship and yes I am ready to let someone really love me. I deserve to be loved and so do you, all of us deserve to be loved and shouldn’t wait for love to come to us, instead go grab it with gusto.

Atom Bomb

My high school principal signed my yearbook an wrote Trenton High’s answer to the atom bomb. He knew me well and to this day I still am an “atom bomb”. I so enjoy being silly and it helps fill the loneliness.

I haven’t been in a man’s arms in over three years and the closest I have gotten to sex is molesting the mannequin in Target last week. It is definitely not  healthy to go without sex and the body requires it to be happy and yes that falls under maintenance.

So here is the atom bomb waiting for a maintenance man and it isn’t easy. I have never been one to date or go bar hopping. I do not seek out companionship and no I’m not a one night stand type of woman.

My hats off to my jacuzzi tub because without the help of the jets, I am sure I would have gone crazy by now. To many taboos have been painted by society and masturbation is like so taboo, what a bunch of bunk.

If masturbation were a crime and I’m sure is it somewhere, hell if I got convicted I would be doing a million consecutive life sentences. I am a woman who is not ashamed of much and wanting to feel sexy is a must for me.

No I am not stick thin quite the opposite as I am a bbw that loves lingerie and to be naked and that is me. I am a nature lover, animal lover and I love to laugh and to make people laugh.

Someday, someone will come into my life that will be a perfect fit but until then I just deal with day-to-day crap and look forward to traveling and getting laid with a whole lot of sensual moments.

Atom Bomb

My high school principal signed my yearbook an wrote Trenton High’s answer to the atom bomb. He knew me well and to this day I still am an “atom bomb”. I so enjoy being silly and it helps fill the loneliness.

I haven’t been in a man’s arms in over three years and the closest I have gotten to sex is molesting the mannequin in Target last week. It is definitely not  healthy to go without sex and the body requires it to be happy and yes that falls under maintenance.

So here is the atom bomb waiting for a maintenance man and it isn’t easy. I have never been one to date or go bar hopping. I do not seek out companionship and no I’m not a one night stand type of woman.

My hats off to my jacuzzi tub because without the help of the jets, I am sure I would have gone crazy by now. To many taboos have been painted by society and masturbation is like so taboo, what a bunch of bunk.

If masturbation were a crime and I’m sure is it somewhere, hell if I got convicted I would be doing a million consecutive life sentences. I am a woman who is not ashamed of much and wanting to feel sexy is a must for me.

No I am not stick thin quite the opposite as I am a bbw that loves lingerie and to be naked and that is me. I am a nature lover, animal lover and I love to laugh and to make people laugh.

Someday, someone will come into my life that will be a perfect fit but until then I just deal with day-to-day crap and look forward to traveling and getting laid with a whole lot of sensual moments.

The Love Letters

Want to keep romance alive? Right your sweetheart love letters, they should be hot, romantic, sexy, titillating and exciting Sexting is also a good way to keep your relationship exciting. Ladies remember men are driven by sex so pull out your hottest lingerie and send your man a sexy, hot text or talk dirty to him on the phone.

Many women refuse to admit they masturbate but let’s not kid ourselves, everyone has done self gratification and phone sex is also the ultimate turn on for your man. Don’t be foolish and let another woman satisfy your man when you can do it all by yourself.

I have found it keeps relationships exciting and rich and there is no head turning or attention paid to other women as long as you keep it exciting and sexually hot. men need plenty of physical attention and you have to work with their fantasies as well as your own.