Kids First

I am a person that experienced divorce of my parents when I was young and I understand the importance of spending time with both parents even though my father was absent most of my life. Mike and I were going to the lake this weekend but his kids wanted to spend time with him so we didn’t go, I really respect Mike for putting his kids first because I know only to well the pain his children are experiencing.

People are so selfish and they blow off their kids to be with their latest and greatest which in my eyes is wrong. Our children rely on us for so much more than most parents realize or pay any attention to. Boys are taught not to cry and girls are taught to be girlie, this is wrong as boys should be able to express themselves without reprisal of anyone and girls should be encouraged as boys to follow their hearts and their desires.

Sure, I feel let down that Im not with Mike but guess what? His kids would feel it so much more than I and by him spending time with them he is developing some pretty great kids. Mike is teaching his kids that family comes first and to me that is paramount to anyone or anything else. Most women would be pissed but wouldn’t say anything or show it but not me, I’m not pissed at all.

I am mature enough to know my place in Miguel’s life and yes I am at the top right below his kids which is kool with me. I really like learning about his kids and I listen when he talks about them which is all the time. A man who is proud of his children and wants to exalt them is a truly great guy in my eyes and always will be. Miguel is a wonderful man so full of love and self-assurance and I really am attracted to that.

He doesn’t have a college degree and he isn’t well off financially but he does well enough for himself and he takes excellent care of his children. He is a proud man, a man of morals and ethics, a man who knows how to treat a lady and how to respect her as well. He treats me better than anyone ever has and Im not used to being treated so well but I love it and I think I could fall in love with him.

Planning

We spend our lives planning, from the time we are born we plan as that is how the brain works and it’s one of many purposes. We plan our futures and some plan them at a very early age, myself I still do not know what I want to be when I grow up.

Life can be pretty serious business at times but I think people have gotten way to serious, to stressed and to overworked. People in the States tend not to be the friendliest except Midwesterners and even they have become indifferent to others.

I am convinced that I am not of the attitude of most people today as I was raised in the sixties and still think that way. I believe in opening doors, saying thank you and you’re welcome, helping others, believing in God and home cooking.

By today’s standards I am a Neanderthal and I really do not mind as I have strong moral fiber as well as beliefs. I am learning to enjoy life again and I am basically happy as well as content and I feel good about myself and who I am.

I have learned not to put to much energy into planning my days or my future as I already know where I am headed without laying down the plans. Most have such little faith in God and they do not believe in angels either.

I believe in angels and God and I do have angel that watches over me, he is always there in the corner of the room or on my shoulder and yes, he does whisper into my ear. He has been with me since about November of last year.

Yes, I know you think the bipolar is rearing again don’t you? Well, it is not I can assure you of that and I do not mind admitting that I have an angel. My angel is always looking out for me and guiding me and he knows how hard life has been for me.

My angel has kept me from making any concrete plans until quite recently, as recently as today I have finally made a concrete committment to visit NY. I booked my flight so now I am committed and looking forward to getting away from it all.

It’s going to be nice to wake up without any demands placed on me and just go through the day letting it unfold before me. I am opening up like the bud of a flower and letting the good come into my life finally and I am looking forward to this vacation.