Luv As I Know It

I have learned what it feels like to be in love with someone, I know that sounds absurd but I fell in love for the first time in my adult life almost four years ago.

No, I never cheated on my husband, when I married I married until death and that’s exactly what happened. It’s hard when you do not understand the feeling of love and out of no where you are flattened onto your back like being punched and having the wind knocked out of you.

It’s a grand feeling indeed and it’s exciting and fun, love is awesome when things are going well and then you end up getting kicked in the teeth, screwed over and the more you gave the more they took. Then one day they just walk out of your life as if they never knew you at all.

That’s what I do not like about love, the cheaters, those that get someone else pregnant, those that are seeing more than one person at a time. These are the things that make me so damn scared of real love and abandoning myself to another person is really scary for me, I guess it has to do with trust.