As people we are an odd bunch with odd ways and yes we are a very complex species, as long as you do not single out certain people, yes we are a very complex species indeed. I find it terribly funny that some people thrive on being sneaky.
Yes, there are those that love to by a mystery and love to keep mystery going for a very long time. People enjoy a good mystery, that’s if you stay away from the those ignorant souls that find reading and living to boring to endure.
As for myself I hate to break the news to you but I am probably the funniest, craziest person that enjoys reading and solving a good mystery. It took me several years, literally several years to unravel a mystery and I am not sure that I have unraveled it as of yet.
One should never be to sure of themselves as that can blow up in your face so easily and I am not sure of myself as far as this situation goes. I honestly am so damn scared I’m almost well I won’t tell you what but ya I am scared.
I am actually feeling a tremendous amount of anxiety that is making my heart race and I’m close to grabbing the bottle of xanax to calm my nerves. The last time I took xanax is when my husband died last year and I lived on xanax as I was a mess.
I have been fortunate enough to have someone behind the scenes watching over me and listening to me when I was so messed up. I have gone through all the stages of grief and the hardest one for me was anger, I had a lot of anger and was entitled to every bit of it and more.
People that go through a divorce deal with the same emotions, the only difference is their spouse didn’t die but the relationship did and that is tough on anyone. I hope this is a trip that changes my life for the better, for happier times, more romantic times.