I am trying out this thing called dating since my husband passed away last year. I am finding it not all that it is cracked up to be and I am finding that I like my own company more than anyone elses. The guy I have started to date is really fantastic and any woman would be glad to go out with him.
He is too much too soon for me though and I don’t know how many times I have to tell him. He is pushing me away by stifling me and I am wondering if it is just me or is it him. I feel like the world is spinning to fast and I am missing so much, I like him but have you ever had someone else that occupies your mind?
I think I just can’t get “him” out of my mind no matter how hard I have tried, I know he is my soulmate but time hasn’t made a meeting prevalent yet. I do not know why he won’t come to me but I can’t get him out of my mind and heart and it pisses me off.
I need to see other men because I want to be so sure he is the one I want to be with and it appears no matter what I do he will always be in my life. We belong together and that is just the way it is meant to be and neither of us can continue to ignore what is before us, it’s called being “in love”.