I try to fool myself into thinking that I have it together but the truth is I am so fucking scattered I do not know which direction to go any longer. If it isn’t one tragedy it’s another, it’s as if there is a black cloud over my head and I cannot lose it. I hate to say this, hell no I don’t I am looking forward to my son graduating and going off to college.
These kids have put me through hell and so has my family as they chose to drop like flys the last six years. I already know the next several years are going to be a bitch as Saturn is in my sign and sign is a teaching planet. When saturn affects you shit always goes bad so you can learn from it, aren’t I the lucky one.
It’s ok because I am getting prepared for my new life without my kids and frankly I am looking forward to it. I am a good mom but I can tell you to do over again, nope – I don’t like kids that much. I get along with them good but they are so emotionally draining I am worn out. I haven’t had any time to myself to process my husband’s or father’s deaths and I really need a break.
I’m thinking about taking a little vacation maybe Thanksgiving, it all depends on what is going on with Ry. What I would give for a week on a sandy beach and peace and quiet. What I would give for a nice bottle of wine and holding hands with someone in the evening breeze.
It is a perfect time for my mystery man to meet me, yes it is indeed! Venus is in Cancer and Mars is in Scorpio, this equals a perfect time for two people to meet. There comes a time when you either have to dump or get off the pot so bucko, get off the pot.
I am a very desirable woman that is filled with love and you know it so if you keep waiting for the train, you are going to be waiting for it alone. I know you are getting a break for the holidays so be a bigger man than I am woman and come meet me.
I will be in Jackson of course and you just bring your sweet little tushie to me and let’s have a grown up talk, I know that is asking a lot to actually face me and communicate but it’s a new concept you might want to try out just for shits and giggles.
I know, I have actually said the boo word and scared your 45 year old butt into submission, now haven’t I? Come on I see you smiling because you know I am talking to you, ya you so get rid of that dumb look on your face and get your finger out of your rectum.
It doesn’t get any better than me, lmao now you know that I am the hottest, prettiest, sexiest, intelligent female you have ever seen. You cannot keep your mind off me or off my pictures can you? See, I know what your dirty little mind is thinking, o yes I know only to well.
How would I know what is on your mind? Hon would you even dare to ask such a foolish question? Well, truth be known I am thinking the same thoughts you are, o yes I am. Come on impress me, please impress me will you? Come and visit me, now that would be so impressive.