Myself Lost

I am so completely lost in my own life and have not a clue where I am heading. One would think at my age I would have all the answers and know where I want to go. I do not, I am completely and utterly lost at this point in my life and all the changes keep on happening so I can never adjust.

I would love nothing more than to live on a small farm with my pets away from people. I have found I like my own company more than other people’s. I am so comfortable by myself and in my own home that I have no desire to go anywhere else right now. I love to travel but I just can’t afford it.

I need to get through these next several years and when the kids are gone is when I will make whatever moves are necessary or desirable. I am so glad I am not a woman who needs company or a man to make her complete. I get lonely but I have survived quite nicely without a man.

I will one day find all that I have dreamed for but in the mean time I am just trying to get past the manure pile of my life and dump the unnecessary crap. It is hard work to clean yourself up and dust yourself off and it takes years to shed the old skin and let the new one shine brightly.

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The Door Does Hit You In The Ass

I have been trying to keep you out of my life because all you do is hurt me but you just won’t go. You have a gf knocked her up and posted the pic, wtf is wrong with you? Must you continue to hurt me because you are so damn insecure and assume things without proof to back them up.

Well I dumped your sorry ass off my fb, ya I know there’s another 1499 profiles that are yours-just go the fuck away will you? I don’t need this shit especially right now but you are so damn self centered and narcissistic you have to make things all about you and your damn feelings.

You may your choice and now that’s she is knocked up, well there ya go your new wifey-please just leave me alone, all I have done is love you and help you and all you have done is continuously hurt me. I can tell you as long as you have contact with me and ask me to help you jack off you and her will go nowhere EVER.

Do you love me? NO Do you care? A tad bit-based on that information you have a small amount of caring for me which I would hope you would be man enough to be gone as you know you are destroying me, my son just did that please do not do it as well. Hell, it’s to late it’s a done deal.

Please, leave my life and let me be happy because you do not want any part of my life-