Foot Foot Who’s Got The Foot?

I was just thinking how ugly my feet are and how they went from a size 8 to 9 after I had the kids. I have wide feet and it’s hard to find shoes that fit without killing my feet. I have had foot problems since I was a kid and my toes are scary ugly, or at least I think so. My daughter’s baby toe curves in like her grandfather’s.

Bob had a curved baby toe to and I was also thinking about the title of this post. When Bob was in icu, one of the times he was in icu the nurse came in to check his pulse to his feet. She reached under the blanket and felt his left food and then asked him if she could feel his right foot.

He didn’t have a right foot and Bob literally started to cry when she left the room. I felt so bad for him and I was so pissed I told the nurse that he was her only patient and she should have read his chart because that was her job. I went on a serious nut and filed a complaint.

Filing a complaint didn’t change a thing but at least Bob knew that I wasn’t leaving him to the wolves. Anyway, Bob had so so feet I guess , I never gave it much thought except he had little feet size 8. His feet were really skinny like his legs and it just looked odd to me that a man 5’10” would have such a small foot.

Feet are so sensual and I can tell you if someone sucks on your second toe you will feel it clear up into your groin. It is an arousal spot and the nerve runs clear up our legs. Try it some time if you haven’t, I believe you will find it quite enjoyable and exciting.


I have a new person living in my homes, James-he will be 18 in December and he was living with his x step dad. His mom met a millionaire who didn’t like kids and she pitched her son for this man.

James works odd jobs and he is trying to become self-reliant but he needs help. He came over and the first thing he did his hug me, tightly. He knows the pain I am feeling over my son and he went to the hospital for me.

I had to send James to tell Ryan that I turned him over to the state, I cannot tell him. I have my jeans around my ankles as I try not to trip on the cracks in the sidewalk going away from my son.

My son is breaking my heart but he has to realize I need to live as well. The one thing I did that was good today was take James in. He will help me a lot and keep me company as well. I have got to get to the orthopedic surgeon about the possible torn rotorcuff in my shoulder because the pain is getting worse.


When Ryan tried to commit suicide on Oct 1 I had to get him on the floor to give him cpr and he is a big boy. He is 6’1″ 230 lbs. or about that. I messed up my shoulder getting him on the floor.

I blew out 3 discs in my lower back helping my husband when he had his leg amputated so I am just one fine piece of physical mess not including my malfunctioning brain.


The Weight

I have had weight problems since I was in high school and I finally lost it when I graduated. I was able to control my weight until I broke my knee and could no longer work out. I had several knee surgery’s over several years and when I first broke my kneecap I had the cast on two days and my leg swelled up twice the size.

I was allergic to the casting material so they cut the cast in half to get it off and then wrap by leg in an ace bandage and used another bandage to get it on. It was a terribly painful ordeal and caused me so many problems. The weight of course piled back on and the older I get the harder it is to get rid of it.

I have seriously thought about getting the lap band, lipo suction and wiring my jaw shut and then I started to think about my neighbor, big Rick. He has the lap band and he lost a lot of weight at first but has since put it all back on. The only safe way to lose weight is the natural way.

I have finally figured out where to meet men to, at the gym of course! You can strike up some grand friendships at the gym and maybe I can be lucky enough to meet a personal trainer that won’t charge me, lol I seriously doubt that but what the heck one must always dream now shouldn’t one?



When my daughter was thirteen I had to make the decision if she should have the gardisil shot which is supposed to fight cervical cancer. She had the shot which is done in three separate injections and the last one was the one that she passed out and snapped her jaw off her face and split up the center of her chin.

She had to have emergency surgery and I started investigating about immunizations and the compensation for each kind. I was shocked to see that gardasil was already on the list. She ended up getting a thirty thousand dollar settlement that she is going to start getting payments on her birthday.

Immunizations cause so much harm to our children and it could be avoided if the pharmaceutical company’s weren’t so damn greedy. It is so sad to see how many children have been affected by immunizations and how it has damaged them permanently.


Ya I’m Hurt

Thought you were going to read about another broken heart, huh? Nope, that’s not the latest and greatest pain, nope I got one just a bit better. My doc thinks I have a torn rotator cuff and he wants me to see an orthopedic surgeon and as far as my hip, he thinks I might have a “rotten ovary” as he put it lol, fucking men.

He thinks I could have bone cancer or something wrong with the female organs, my aunt had bone cancer in her hip and she survived that. I am just to damn mean to have cancer, my cells would kick cancers ass and take names later so there aint no cancer happening on this body.

So off to the other doc next week if I dont end up in jail, that’s another story involving scum and greed. I am trying to survive on social security because I’m disabled and it isn’t easy, let me tell you. I am fortunate compared to most as I have excellent health care benefits.

If  I need surgery that won’t happen for another two years as I have no one to take my son to school or take care of him so I cannot just check out because I need surgery. Being a mom is a twenty four seven day a week  job and it hasn’t been easy being a single mom at that.