When You Love

When you love someone they are always on your mind, you think of them constantly and wonder what they are doing, and you dream about them. When you love someone no matter if you are mad at them you always want the best for them. When I love someone I am totally consumed with wanting to protect them.

That is the first thing that comes to mind, is protecting them and wanting them to succeed in whatever they are doing. This isn’t limited to my heart’s desire but my friends as well. Protecting those I love is so important to me and I send out a special prayer daily for them.

I think sending protection and surrounding them with love is more important than anything else. It doesn’t matter if they love me or not because what I do is what I do, not what others are expected to do. I have learned so much about love from someone who I never expected to fall in love with.

I never knew what it felt like to be in love, but I do now and it’s a great feeling expect when you are disagreeing, then it’s very painful. The man I love has every ounce of love I could give someone, he means the world to me and he has helped me deal with some very hard times.

The one thing I want more than anything is to be with him and I pray every day that we will meet. He says he wants to come to me and I know he can but chooses not to and I do not know why. He knows how much this hurts me but nothing has changed and I need him so much.

Even though I love him with all my heart I cannot put my life on hold and I have to be open to meeting other men, which I am with lack luster. I do not want to meet anyone else but I have no choice but to be open to dating other men but you have to do what you have to do to find happiness.